I wear the mask….

I wear this mask.

To protect myself from whatever is going around at work. Fevers, stomach viruses, and colds. The mask makes me feel safer, invincible, protected from harm.

I get funny looks from co-workers. I assumed by now everyone knows about the cancer and chemo. Apparently I am wrong. I get people asking all the time.

I have decided that I needed a super hero name, or an avenger name or something. You know, since I am fighting the good fight and I wear a pink mask. My boss (who is my friend) and I spent time looking up synonyms for torpedo. We found one that fit closer to my size/personality. Carronade. The Pink Carronade! It is a short (get it) cannon used in the royal British military.

The nice thing about this mask: I can talk to myself and no one sees it. I can stick my tongue out at someone and no one knows. I can not be smiling and none are the wiser.

The bad thing about the mask: it makes my face sweat like crazy. At the end of the day my face is itchy. Small price to pay for not getting the bug going around.

I wear this mask.

I wear my smile as a mask. I refuse to let anyone see me down. So I place the smile on my face and leave it there.

The smile makes others feel safe, reassured and no need to worry.

The nice thing about this mask: It comforts others. It reminds me to find joy to make it real. It gives people hope. Sometimes it makes others smile too.

The bad thing about this mask: More often than not it is just a mask.

The head games that a cancer diagnosis plays on you are difficult. It never truly leaves your mind, ever. It is a game changer.

In every moment of time I fight with my thoughts. My smile is real, it is not a mask.

I wear this mask.

8 comments

  1. ladieswholunchreviews · March 29, 2016

    Pink Carronade, I love that name. Fight on, girl!!

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  2. bisimodupe1975 · March 29, 2016

    A smile is a good mask…gets others smiling. Keep fighting girl. Wish you well.

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  3. neveradullbling · March 29, 2016

    I like it!! Not the mask per se, but the name, hehe! Yes, I think it fits! Fight on! You’ve got this!!

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  4. Heather Magbee · March 29, 2016

    Hang in there and keep up the fight Pink Carronade!

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  5. Kay Morris · March 29, 2016

    LOVE, LOVE the nick name! Most fitting!
    Keep fighting the good fight. You are such an inspiration!!

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  6. Kay Morris · March 29, 2016

    Reblogged this on Kay Morris Writes and commented:
    Inspirational message from THE PINK CARRONADE. Please read and share 😀

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  7. Deb · March 30, 2016

    I love the name! Keep on keeping on.:-)

    Liked by 1 person

  8. jacquelineobyikocha · March 30, 2016

    I do like your chosen nickname and this sounds very sensible and well thought out. You are such a vibrant soul 🙂

    Liked by 1 person

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