I am just going to leave my soul right here…..

Here comes all the word vomit. IF I wasn’t doing my 3 day Reboot I would be drinking right about now…

It begins with another repeat of a painful body. Swollen joints, twisted hip, knee and elbow. The pain is quite awful and it will be an ibuprofen and CBD oil kind of night. I think it is the change of weather.  It is making everything inflamed.

A very ‘productive’ morning at work didn’t help either. Mel Robbins said to change your verbiage from ‘busy’ to ‘productive’ gives you more energy and less excuses. I was behind for hours. Had to talk to an employee about an error made and they mouthed back to me. Not a fan of a grown man who can’t own up to a mistake. It happens. Own it. Be done with it.

It may not have affected me so much if I hadn’t just been ‘bothered’ by a truck driver. I have already told my co-workers that I will not wait on him anymore. He says things that make me uncomfortable. When I saw him out on the dock, I kept walking and didn’t make eye contact. (my self-defense mechanism)  He saw me walk by and proceeded to follow me. Kept calling me ‘Miss Renee’. He asked me if I ever get tired of hearing ‘ow’ . I was confused, told him I don’t hear that often when I am walking up and down the dock talking to my team. He again repeated the question; Miss Renee do you ever get tired of hearing ‘ow’? I again had no idea how to respond because I had no idea what he was talking about. He continued to walk beside me and ask the same question. Finally he said “Miss Renee do you ever get tired of hearing ‘ow’? You know because they say ow when their necks snap when you walk out on the dock?” I was dumbfounded! I tried to say that is inappropriate or unprofessional but all I could get out was sheepish stammering. I was very uncomfortable. He left, only to come back and say ‘Miss Renee, sorry if I was being a poop’ and he left.

In that moment, that very moment I lost it. Despite being ‘productive’ and in pain and super gassy from all the extra fiber I have been eating/drinking but now I feel ashamed. Ashamed that I couldn’t stand up for myself when it mattered. Ashamed and disappointed in myself for not speaking up and telling him that it WAS inappropriate. That he was a poop..in fact a shit for talking to me like that. That is not OKAY to talk like that to someone you don’t even know. Embarrassed that I just couldn’t get the words out.

Other than that, this is how my food played out today:

Coffee with vanilla almond milk (two of them) Chocolate shake with dark cherries.

Work: two cups of plain black coffee. Fiber Sweep.

Lunch: protein shake, super greens salad with golden beets and tomatoes with oil and vinegar for dressing. Half an apple

Snack…like at 6PM tonight: humus and celery.

Dinner: Protein shake with a handful of spinach in it. I was tired and did not want to make my dinner of veggies tonight.

Funny story.. Last night the hubby came into the bedroom and made a face and asked ‘what is that you got going on in here?’ I told him farting, lots of farting… He said “Yep!” and turned around to go sleep downstairs for the night!! Thank you 3 day reboot for that giggle.

 

Still gassey tonight but I am actually hurting too much to even care at this point in my night.

Friday HAS to be better!! It has to!

How did you do?

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