Blood orange and a spritz…….

Woke up this morning and was disappointed with myself. Disappointed that I didn’t get stuff done on my list over the weekend.  When I wake up like that I know I have to work extra hard to fight off making bad choices with eating. When you see my list today of food consumed today you will see the pattern emerge.

Breakfast: coffee with almond milk (2) Espresso with chocolate almond milk (2) Superfoods shake chocolate with banana, spinach and turmeric.

Lunch: After a few meetings and falling behind on my work I found myself craving Fritos. I don’t know why, except not sleeping well and waking up disappointed. I drank my water and hoped it would go away. It didn’t. I went to lunch and bought a snack size, yet very expensive bag of Fritos. Sat down and put my lunch together. It was a cole slaw with Dijon mustard and rice wine vinegar, tuna salad with greek yogurt and cucumbers and half of a honey crisp apple. The apple is a sensible fiber filled carb. I am eating my salad and really enjoying it. It tasted great. Then I see that bag of chips sitting there and I feel guilty for buying them when I didn’t really want them anymore. So what do I do? Well I eat them anyway. #disappointment

Dinner: Poured a glass of the bottle of Pumpita that I found at Target the other day. I like Sangria and Blood Oranges. I did NOT like this. I don’t really drink wine anymore unless it is a glass of champagne or Prosseco. This was awful. I dumped it out. That is the one thing I am NOT disappointed about! Dinner tonight was roasted chicken and mini bell peppers. It was actually good. I surprised myself even. I am not the best cook and I am really challenged with cooking from ‘feel’ or ‘sight’.  I put it all on a pan and roasted it for  for about 40 minutes. Hubby even liked the chicken.

I decided I needed to warm up so I made a cup of decaf coffee with a splash of chocolate almond milk.

Feeling better than when I started. Just tired.

Didn’t workout today. Drank 140 ounces of water.

How did you do?

Buffalo burgers…oh my!

A very relaxed Sunday and nothing on my to do list really got done so what do I do? I just shut down and do even less. I don’t know why I do this to myself but I do. Which is also why I will then turn around and sabotage myself with food too.

This is how today played out:

Breakfast: coffee with almond milk (2) espresso with almond milk. Blueberry donut.

Stopped up on the South Hill to pick up some cool mittens a friend made for me, so we were so close to Target again we stopped in for another coffee. Venti caffè mocha. Grabbed the bacon egg bites for some protein.

Lunch: We went to Cabellas to shop for some winter clothes for the hubby. Stopped in there for lunch. I ordered the buffalo burger no cheese and a side salad. Choose the balsamic vinaigrette and had half of that on the salad.  Had water to drink. Not bad. I kept the top off the burger and ate all of hubby’s veggies from his burger too. I did all right until I tried one of his super salty twice fried fries dipped in ketchup!! Caught myself eating about five more after that. What is it about salt??

For my dinner I had the rest of my dinner from yesterday. That meant the salad with black olives and cucumbers and onions with, you guessed it balsamic vinaigrette! Also the rest of the sausage and peppers in marinara. It was even better the second day!

 

No workout today. Water intake was 145 ounces.

How did you do?

 

Angry Prawns for the win!

I tried to upload my picture of my dinner from tonight. It didn’t work.  We went to Picabu Bistro, once featured on Diner Drive Ins and Dives with Guy F. We used to live in that neighborhood and went quite often. They have this appetizer called angry prawns and it is soooo good! It will cure what ails you..seriously if you are coming down with cold, eat the prawns. If you are sad, eat the prawns. If you are celebrating eat the prawns.  So with that said it will be a bit tricky to log what I had for dinner but here is the best I can do.

Breakfast: Coffee with almond milk (two) Espresso with almond milk and Irish cream/chocolate syrup Had my chocolate superfoods shake with dark cherries and spinach. Stopped at the coffee shop and had a mocha maple spice latte. Very good.

Lunch: around 2PM today. A slice of FFC bread with tuna salad that I made with turmeric , bell pepper and cucumbers. Had the rest of the mushy cauliflower that I “steamed” overcooked in the Instant Pot (another story) Pita chips and humus.

Dinner: lovely dinner… Two yes TWO cranberry hard ciders, share the angry prawns appetizers with the hubby. Shrimp in a spicy creamy sauce and sourdough bread. Then I had a dijon steak salad. So good…. enough food for three meals…

Water: 150 ounces Workout: Yoga

How did you do?

What’s in a glass of water…

There is so much in a glass of water. The more I continue on my journey for health and healing I am learning this. I have always been a big advocate for water and it’s benefits and now the more education I have in health and nutrition I will become an even BIGGER pusher of the water!!

It helps your skin and your lungs and your normal poop cycle. It helps flush out toxins and bad tasting food. It makes you feel full so you don’t eat more than you should. Many people do not drink enough water throughout the day. In fact, the majority of the time you feel hungry you are probably dehydrated and just thirsty for water!! It is true!

When you are thirsty something triggers in your brain to tell your body….meanwhile your body like to play tricks on you and tell you that it really needs a cup cake STAT!! (not speaking from experience at all!)

Anyway, I have had a lot of water today. I know this because I tracked it. So far I am up to  140 ounces!! Now if all that water would ease my hot flashes that would be awesome!

There is a rumor going around that menopausal women (like me) can’t lose weight. I am going to prove them wrong. Will it be overnight? Ha! Nope. Will it be next month? Well possibly but not enough for anyone to notice except the scale. Will it be overtime little by little with lots of trial and error? YES!!!! Logging my food on here has helped me a lot. It shows you and me that no one is perfect no matter how much fitness and health and behavior classes they have taken. That we all eat foods for a reason: Comfort, emotions, socializing. That we speak negatively to our selves about ourselves and there is no success in that EVER.

So with that said here is the food for the day for me:

Breakfast: vanilla shake with 1 cup spinach and 1/2 cup blueberries. Coffee with 3 tablespoons of vanilla almond milk, then an espresso with more almond milk.

I was taking classes this morning and I was cold and tired so I made another cup of coffee with almond milk. Then I wanted something sweet so I added two pumps of the sugar-free salted caramel syrup to a cup of decaf with , yes almond milk.

Lunch today was the last slice of pizza from yesterday and more of the greek salad with the balsamic vinaigrette on it.

I was feeling restless and bored so I had a snack today. Had humus and a serving of the Ritz Pita crackers. They are pretty good and I like the salty crunchy aspect of them today.

Dinner: Water first of course. Had shrimp that I cooked in olive oil and a little butter with some fresh garlic. Served it more of the greek salad (almost done with the salad enough for my lunch tomorrow)

So far today I am feeling pretty good about my food. Feeling full and emotionally satisfied too.  I have pooped today and as I mentioned 140 ounces of water.

No workout today. It was a lazy watch Netflix with the hubby do some studies and classes on-line kind of day.

How did you do?

Coffee and donuts….

Well here it is Friday and I am ready to confess my ‘off the track’ healthy lifestyle diet fails….again. #brokenrecord     I will tell  you now this will be different than all the other posts because it involves the Friday donut.    Here we go…..

Breakfast: half a cup of coffee because the Keurig would only brew A HALF A CUP!!!!! #blerg Vanilla shake with spinach, almond butter and 1/2 cup of blueberries

Decided to day to surprise my work team with donuts so I ran by the grocery store on the way to work to get two dozen donuts. Picked up a twelve pack of Mt. Dew to surprise the hubby with when I got home.  At the store I annoyed a lot of people because it took me forever to pick out the two dozen donuts for the guys. Wanted to get all their favorites.

Since the Keurig disappointed me I stopped by the coffee shop and got the special Maple Spice is still going. Very good.

Work: A cinnamon roll donut thing. I HAD to have one since I brought them, right? Had a meeting at work. Came down, ATE ANOTHER DONUT!!!!WHAT!?!?!?!? Yeah that is two donuts in a one and half hour span! Yikes!!

Then I drank 75 ounces of water in the next two hours to ‘wash out the donuts’

Lunch: Didn’t;t eat. Two many donuts. Too full.

3PM: ate my carrot sticks

Dinner: baked potato with butter and  a large grilled steak! Potato is a veggie, right? Brewed a sweet raspberry tea with Tito’s vodka added to it. Then for dessert I made a decaf coffee with Patron XO Cafe Dark in it with the last of the vanilla almond milk..

and that brings us to now….

Not the best day. But it is what it is and I am being accountable to you.

How did you do?

The tireds are back……

You know when the mini relaxing and joint fixing weekend has come to an end, the tiredness hits on day of work.

I know it just the change in the weather and I get to look forward to the change on the clocks soon too. That will be a big help (said no since the 1800’s) or some obscure outdated amount of time that the fallacy of day light saving time was created….any way I digress.

I really wanted to write about how I am tired again and it is only day two back to work after our adventurous weekend. I am just dragging butt today. This is why I do my workouts in the morning because I know that I won’t have the energy to do it after.  All day today I kept telling myself I need just ONE more cup of coffee and I will be fine. So I kept having more coffee. I even went for a coffee shop run for an espresso! Nothing worked so it just made me more tired (vicious circle) a.k.a. #definitionofcrazy I know that if I keep eating healthier and moving more I will be able to fall asleep faster and longer then, in turn wake up rested, need less coffee and that would be the new cycle. Harder to do than one might think.

Anyway, here my list of foods tonight. Working for a better day tomorrow. A stronger new me down the road..

Breakfast: superfoods shake chocolate with dark cherries and spinach. Started adding turmeric again to help with the inflammation and for its cancer fighting powers. Coffee with vanilla almond milk (1) espresso with half and half

Work: coffee with half and half (2) then ran up to coffee shop the maple spice special.

Lunch: a bag of jalapeño Cheetos, it was a serving size bag! green salad with tomatoes and bell pepper, homemade dressing and a serving of cottage cheese. One Oreo cookie given to me by a friend.

Dinner: TACOS!! duh it IS Tuesday…anyway it was ground beef, cheese, black olives and salsa wrapped up in a flour tortilla. I had two. #eek

Water was 100 ounces and workout was Yoga!!

Doctor today…

Had a doctors appointment today. Not one of my favorite things to do. (don’t know why ha ha) This was my yearly appointment with my primary care doctor. I actually like her and can talk to her freely. She is also a breast cancer survivor like me. In fact she was the one that insisted that I get my mammogram done because she was fresh out of her “adventure” and knows the importance of getting squished.

Anyway, I was a bit hesitant about going this time. Let me explain. It happened about two months ago. I needed a refill on my Symbicort for my asthma. I had two on hand but they were out of date so I went online to order a refill. It had been so long since I had it filled that they deleted it from my profile. I had to call them and ask for it. They called my doctor and she told them I was not her patient anymore and that I had moved away. WHAT!?!!?! long story short, the new girl in the office deleted my file because she thought I hadn’t been there in three years. Good thing was they were able to fill my prescription, find my previous records and forgo the pap smear. Thank goodness!

When I got there and they weighed me it was, yet again, five pounds heavier than the scale at home. This happens every time no matter what doctor office I am at. So frustrating. When the nurse pulled up my file she told me that I am actually DOWN ten pounds from last year! TEN!!! Woohoo. It is a small victory but it is a victory. Yeah me.

With that said here is my food intake for the day:

Breakfast: coffee almond milk. Espresso with vanilla almond milk and half and half (2) Cafe Latte superfoods shake with 1/2 cup of blueberries and spinach.

Work: coffee three cups with half and half.

Lunch: 1/2 apple, spinach salad with tomatoes and bell peppers and homemade dressing. two hard boiled eggs.

Dinner: 1 quesadilla and three corn tortillas with melted cheese. Then I made an adffogato with the Tillamook Sm’ores ice cream and decaf espresso. So all in all my day was good until dinner. I need to work on that. I AM working on that.  I will be down ANOTHER ten pounds next year too!!!

Water was great! Had 100 ounces today. Also did yoga core and salutations today.

How did you do?

 

 

Acid Reflux for the win…..

I didn’t sleep well last night. I had acid reflux the first couple of hours when I went to bed, (too much to eat after my 3 day reboot) then the painful aches started up again with a vengeance.  When we soaked in the hot springs for hours it felt so good. When I went to bed it did not. I don’t know why the hot springs made all the pain activate again.  When I went in for my massage and Clay Foot Detox session the therapist implied that my body was probably clenching on to tight to my joints trying to protect themselves from the relaxation. She made it sound better and it made sense the way she described it.

Anyway it was the best message I have in a very long time!!! I actually jogged along the road a little to take a picture of Coffee Creek (I had too) I feel good! So thankful for Sage at Ainsworth Hot Springs.

Today I was planning on getting back to my healthy track and do some yoga, have my shake for dinner and a nice big salad……this is how my day play out instead..

Breakfast: coffee and creamer….lots of coffee and creamer. Two eggs over easy with bacon, fresh fruit, and sour dough toast.

Stopped at Oso Negro in Nelson BC for a double mocha and a small bite of the hubby’s chocolate cake.

Lunch: Half a bag of pig skins.

Late lunch: a slice of hubby’s left over scicillian pizza, a cup of vanilla latte decals and a whole bag of red licorice.

Tomorrow I see the doctor and I am sure I will be told that my weight is too high and so will my cholesterol.. Oh well. I really enjoyed my self and feel wonderful today.

How did you do?

I am just going to leave my soul right here…..

Here comes all the word vomit. IF I wasn’t doing my 3 day Reboot I would be drinking right about now…

It begins with another repeat of a painful body. Swollen joints, twisted hip, knee and elbow. The pain is quite awful and it will be an ibuprofen and CBD oil kind of night. I think it is the change of weather.  It is making everything inflamed.

A very ‘productive’ morning at work didn’t help either. Mel Robbins said to change your verbiage from ‘busy’ to ‘productive’ gives you more energy and less excuses. I was behind for hours. Had to talk to an employee about an error made and they mouthed back to me. Not a fan of a grown man who can’t own up to a mistake. It happens. Own it. Be done with it.

It may not have affected me so much if I hadn’t just been ‘bothered’ by a truck driver. I have already told my co-workers that I will not wait on him anymore. He says things that make me uncomfortable. When I saw him out on the dock, I kept walking and didn’t make eye contact. (my self-defense mechanism)  He saw me walk by and proceeded to follow me. Kept calling me ‘Miss Renee’. He asked me if I ever get tired of hearing ‘ow’ . I was confused, told him I don’t hear that often when I am walking up and down the dock talking to my team. He again repeated the question; Miss Renee do you ever get tired of hearing ‘ow’? I again had no idea how to respond because I had no idea what he was talking about. He continued to walk beside me and ask the same question. Finally he said “Miss Renee do you ever get tired of hearing ‘ow’? You know because they say ow when their necks snap when you walk out on the dock?” I was dumbfounded! I tried to say that is inappropriate or unprofessional but all I could get out was sheepish stammering. I was very uncomfortable. He left, only to come back and say ‘Miss Renee, sorry if I was being a poop’ and he left.

In that moment, that very moment I lost it. Despite being ‘productive’ and in pain and super gassy from all the extra fiber I have been eating/drinking but now I feel ashamed. Ashamed that I couldn’t stand up for myself when it mattered. Ashamed and disappointed in myself for not speaking up and telling him that it WAS inappropriate. That he was a poop..in fact a shit for talking to me like that. That is not OKAY to talk like that to someone you don’t even know. Embarrassed that I just couldn’t get the words out.

Other than that, this is how my food played out today:

Coffee with vanilla almond milk (two of them) Chocolate shake with dark cherries.

Work: two cups of plain black coffee. Fiber Sweep.

Lunch: protein shake, super greens salad with golden beets and tomatoes with oil and vinegar for dressing. Half an apple

Snack…like at 6PM tonight: humus and celery.

Dinner: Protein shake with a handful of spinach in it. I was tired and did not want to make my dinner of veggies tonight.

Funny story.. Last night the hubby came into the bedroom and made a face and asked ‘what is that you got going on in here?’ I told him farting, lots of farting… He said “Yep!” and turned around to go sleep downstairs for the night!! Thank you 3 day reboot for that giggle.

 

Still gassey tonight but I am actually hurting too much to even care at this point in my night.

Friday HAS to be better!! It has to!

How did you do?

Today was better on the scale..

Woke up this morning and was feeling good! Had my water first then hoped on the scale…numbers are down YAY!! This is what sucks about it though…. everyone is right. Eat right, feel better.  Bleh! Ha ha ..honestly though I do have more energy when I eat better. The scale likes it too.

Had a harder time convincing myself that I wasn’t hungry today so I consumed more water to try and fend it off. I did have a few more carbs today than yesterday. Here is how my day of food played out:

Morning: coffee with vanilla almond milk. Two cups

Breakfast: Superfoods vanilla with spinach and blueberries.

Work: two more cups of coffee with half and half.

Lunch: Spinach salad with tiny tomatoes, olive oil and red wine vinegar. Half an apple. Deli sliced ham and one serving of Triscuit Wasabi and Soy Sauce flavored ( enter the extra carbs I mentioned)

Snack: Humus and Carrot Sticks

Dinner: garlic encrusted tilapia, steamed zucchini and sweet potato tots. (rest of the carbs)

Tomorrow I start my 3 Day Reboot. That means very limited caloric intake and no sugars. I do this several times a year. I refuse to give up my coffee (and almond milk) but all in all it is pretty easy to do. I need this to help get me back on track. Especially since I am traveling this weekend and seeing the doctor on Monday….#bleh

Anyway: Water goal was 75 ounces I hit 100 at work alone. Workout today was Yoga.

Goal tomorrow: Yoga, stick to Reboot plan, lots of water.

How did you do?