145.8 Tuesday:What is wrong with me…

Give your best regardless of who is watching. That is what I read today in my personal development. I am being as honest as I can on this blog on what I eat and it is definitely not ‘my best’ Bleh. Here it is in it’s full glory.

Coffee w/creamer (almond milk) 2

Vanilla super foods shake with spinach, almond butter and blueberries.

Work coffee with almond milk, two.

1 and 1/2 ounces of chocolate covered almonds.

Lunch: kale salad with poppy seed dressing and four little tomatoes. 1 cup of pasta from last night. Giant pretzel with cheese dip. Five large Fritos with salsa #thanksscott

One cup of decaf coffee with almond milk.

Get home. I have the CHOICE to eat healthy OR stuff my face since I have to fast for blood work and my infusion tomorrow. I opt for stuffing my face.

This is how dinner played out: Smartfood white cheddar popcorn; one serving. Two cheese crisps. One Angry Orchard hard cider. Two Welches fruit snacks.

WHAT.IS.WRONG.WITH.ME?

My excuses have been the stress and anxiety of my upcoming appointment tomorrow. So the question lies; will I stop eating like this AFTER the weigh in and blood work and infusion tomorrow? I guess we will know soon enough.

I did get my yoga in today and 150 ounces of water.

I showered….

yeah, you read that right. I showered. Why do I feel the need to blog about it? Well, this time of year I find that I only shower about twice a week. It may be gross for some but the truth is that it is cold outside and inside and I am just too tired with how dark it gets so early in the day and can I make anymore excuses? #breathe No. It is cold and I just don’t want to be standing around with wet hair in this weather. I don’t want to sleep with wet hair either. #excuses Anyway the hubby doesn’t mind the hairy legs and lets face it the extra hair keeps my legs and arm pits warmer…..#whatever

My day is not a good day with food…I will write it below EXACTLY how I journaled it today:

coffee/creamer 2 shake-vanilla/spinach/blueberries

mocha maple spice 16oz……….caramel latte 16 oz. Side note: I bought the latte as a surprise for a friend who then didn’t show up at work today so I decided to drink it myself.

tacos salad, 1 cup ground turkey taco meat, cheese moldy cabbage-yuck (yes you read that right, moldy cabbage) Scott brought me a 1/4 pounder with cheese large fries and a coke from McDonalds. Ate half the fries the whole burger and drank most of the soda. Still taste the mold. I feel full and bloated and my tongue tastes so gross!!!! more water STAT!!!!

1 cup mac and cheese with hot sauce. I used butter when I made it. 16 ounces lemon basil hard cider

I am on my 150 ounces of water. No workout

Friday.

 

how did you do?