Salmon burgers…….

I didn’t sleep at all last night. Seriously, I didn’t. I have no idea how I was able to make it through work. I was numb in the mind and emotions (until the end of the day when I lost it) I am happy that even though I didn’t sleep I still got up and worked out with a friend. I promised I would and I showed up and that is what matters. I will tell you that I have no idea how in the heck I am still awake right now.!! I should be passed out, I feel very wide awake still. This is how it started last night. Ugh. Hope it is not another toss and turning with my brain not shutting off night..

Anyway here is how the food played out today. I have excuses but I am not going to use them. Here it is:

 

Breakfast was coffee with creamer, one cup. Super foods shake Cafe Latte flavor with spinach, almond butter and blueberries.

Get to work and have two cups of coffee with creamer and three Christmas cookies that a co-worker brought in today. Ugh. Tis’ the season.

Lunch was 1/2 cup of tuna salad with the cauliflower puree and celery. One slice of FFC bread. One cup of kale salad with parmesan cheese and croutons. Also had diluted lemon  dressing. I wanted more food so I bought a bag of Tostitos corn tortilla chips (two servings in one bag) and a cup of Tostitos nacho cheese cup.

Dinner was TWO Angry Orchard Knotty Pear Hard Cider. One cup of frozen green beans, one tablespoonful of garlic aioli and the salmon burger pictured above. The salmon burger has carrot puree in it too.  I was determined to FINALLY make this recipe forgetting that it called for putting the patties in the fridge for one hour first. Yikes! Who has time for that? So I popped them in the freezer and took a shower (I feel better after that) while they set. Hubby and I really enjoyed these! He had his on a bun. I saved one for me to have for lunch tomorrow. I will be making these again and again! So good.

I am only at about 125 ounces of water today. I did do my Yoga Flow on the Go workout this morning and that makes five days in a row. I am excited that I am developing consistency.

So, how did you do today?

Make better choices….

the plan was to make better choices. I follow a very simple guideline for food. Breakfast is a protein and carb (a veggie earns extra credit) Lunch is a protein, carb and veggie. If you need a snack it should be a protein and carb and only after lunch . Dinner should be veggies and protein, with the veggies being about 75% of the meal. I struggle with this. Mostly because I love carbs…today was no different. This time my carbs was a glass of champagne. I am not stressed about it. I liked it and it was nice to sit down to dinner tonight with it.

Sometimes I let all the guilt get to me about my food. I hang with people who are super healthy and fit, then I feel bad because I am not there yet. I let the guilt of my upcoming doctor appointments in December (three of them) make me feel bad that I am not down those extra six pounds I wanted from the last appointment. Unfortunately the doctors scale is always five pounds more than mine. The nurses there are not very kind about your weight and when it doesn’t budge they seem to judge you. Funny how an oncologist office can make you feel bad about you weight.

The other day my husband told me that he has seen a change in my attitude. Not in my weight, even though I am down twelve pounds from last year, guess you can’t see it. Makes me mad. Not mad enough to stick to my basic plan and that actually makes me angrier.

It truly is about making better choices on a consistent basis. Guess I am not there yet, I just have to keep trying.

Here is how my food played out today:

Breakfast two cups of coffee and creamer. Cafe Latte super foods shake with blueberries and spinach.

Work: coffee with creamer, two cups. 3 Triscuit crackers with a tablespoonful of a homemade cheese ball. (port cheese, cheddar and cream cheese) Very good.

Lunch: cottage cheese, three slices of bacon (thank you Scott Woods!) half of a honey crisp apple, spinach salad with garbanzo beans and black olives. Tossed it with balsamic vinaigrette.

Dinner tonight is pictured above: Steamed Brussel sprouts and a hamburger patty followed by the last of the champagne.

My headache is finally starting to disappear so that is a good thing.

Worked out this morning Yoga abs and ten minutes of meditation.

Water is at 185 ounces.

 

How did you do today?

Went for a drive today..

We went for a drive today. It took us over the passes. There was snow and fog the passes. I tried to snap a decent picture while we were driving. This is the best I could get. Having the snow on the trees made me want to listen to Christmas music. It was a nice drive. Because we were traveling we ate out twice today so my food may look a little questionable. I did make sure to drink plenty of water though.

Had two cups of coffee and creamer at home. Then we headed over to Clark’s Fork for breakfast. I had the “Trapper Wrap” it was filled with egg, potato, sausage gravy, and bacon. I ate half, gave a quarter to the hubby and picked the bacon out of the remains quarter. Had a 12 ounce white mocha too.

On the way back from our destination we stopped in St. Regis for snacks. I had a bottle of water and the hubby found a snack size bag of cheese gouda crackers. We split the bag, they were pretty tasty. You could totally taste the smoky gouda.

We stopped in Coeur d’Alene for a late lunch at our favorite grilled cheese restaurant, Meltz. We decided to split a ‘Gobbler’ This sandwich is amazing! Turkey, stuffing, gravy, sweet potatoes and cranberry aioli. This is my hubby’s favorite sandwich they have and it only comes out during the holidays. I hadn’t had it before. It really is very good. I had a cup of tomato bisque soup with chunks of parmesan in it. Sometimes I actually CRAVE this soup. We also had some of their homemade potato chips.

When I go home I ate three of the Girl Scout almond butter chocolates. Not a lot veggies today that is for sure. Tomorrow will be better. I HAVE to do better the next week. Doctor appointments coming up. Oncologist, DECA and yearly breast exams. Yes, I had mastectomy, no that doesn’t mean I can’t get breast cancer again. Yes, that means I have to still get checked out. Bleh.

I had 160 ounce of water total today.

How did you do?

It’s a Charlie Brown Thanksgiving….

… My husband was worried that he missed the Charlie Brown Thanksgiving special the other day. He kept asking me if we had missed it. He was so happy to find out it was on tonight. I got home after work AND running to the store the night before Thanksgiving (crazy like that) Hubby said that no matter what he was watching Charlie Brown tonight and I was welcome to join him. So I did.

When I was listening to Darren Hardy today for my PD he shared something that stuck with me today: When in doubt choose the harder task. The one you don’t want to do is usually the one you SHOULD do. So much truth to that!!  If I want a trimmer waist line then I MUST do the hard things. Like NOT going to the coffee shop for the special today. Which by the way was hard for me. It is maple spice latte, my favorite and I wanted one so bad……talked myself out of it. I will admit it took a lot of talking but I did talk myself out of it.

Anyway, here is the breakdown of food today:

Breakfast: Coffee with creamer, two cups. Today’s super foods shake was vanilla with spinach, mango almond butter and a splash of turmeric.

Got to work, SKIPPING the coffee shop mind you, and had four cups of coffee with the amazing maple almond milk creamer that I am now officially addicted to.

Long day at my desk waiting for FedEx to call me back, they didn’t so I snacked on some of the Girl Scout sea salted Cashews that I had just bought from one of my staff, you know to support their kid… (sheesh I am a sucker) had 1/2 cup of cashews.

Eventually I went to lunch about 2:30 because my team made me go. I wasn’t really hungry and I wasn’t super excited about my lunch either. I ate some of it; half an apple, 2 cups of spinach with pumpkin seeds and more of that dijon dressing.

After my “quick run” to the grocery store I settled into home for my dinner. Hubby made himself a couple of cheese crisps, I had veggies and an Italian sausage with one cup of the roasted veggies (they are so good still) and Wicked Green Apple cider the whole bottle.

Watched Charlie Brown Thanksgiving with the hubby and am currently cuddled up in a warm bed watching Monk on Amazon Prime. I am very happy in my little world right now.

Water is 150 ounces today. No workout.

 

How did you do?

Free bacon and Free coffee in the same day!….

It is Wednesday and I am here to confess my food journal to you. My back was still hurting when I woke up this morning from my yoga injury this morning. It is actually better now. I went ahead and did a yoga workout this morning hoping it would work out whatever it worked in yesterday. As the day progressed it really did start feeling better. When I started my workout this morning every time I went into downward dog I could feel my back starting to spasm. Bleh.

Anyway this is how my day played out:

Breakfast: two cups of coffee with that amazing Maple flavored Almond Milk creamer. Did you know that my spell check does not like the word creamer?  Made my  super-foods shake. Today was cafe latte with spinach, dark cherries and turmeric.

Wanted to get to work earlier so I left earlier. Leaving earlier means I get to go to the coffee stand for a latte. Stopped and got a 16 ounce Maple Spice latte. AND it was FREE today!! Cool.

I am at work trying to work through my emotions and stresses from the day before keeping my head down and catching up on what I left behind from yesterday. Next thing I know my co-worker Mike taps me on the shoulder and says ‘on my desk’ I walk over  and there it is; perfectly crisp lovely bacon on his desk. AND IT WAS ALL MINE!!!Five perfect pieces of bacon. FREE bacon and FREE coffee in the SAME DAY!! Oh what a wonderful world I exist in!

As the day progressed I did need to have another cup of coffee with half and half. Yes, I said need.

Lunch time rolls around and I have my cabbage, broccoli salad with the greek vinaigrette, green olives and shredded chicken. Dang it I still can’t spell vinaigarette! Tomorrow will be the last day of that salad. The bag is empty. I will buy it again though, I really like it! Anyway I was still hungry so I ate all my snacks too. That was a piece of string cheese, cucumbers and pita crackers.

Then I was cold so I made a cup of decaf coffee with more half and half

Came home from work ON TIME (holler) it was a 7:30AM to 5:45PM day. That makes me happy..ish…

I poured out a glass of grapefruit juice (throat is scratchy) added Tito’s vodka to it, you know to kill the germs. #justify Then I made the hubby dinner which was prosciutto stuffed ravioli with pesto sauce. Caught myself eating them out of the pan. A total of sixteen out of the pan to be exact. Asked my hubby to rub my head, neck and shoulders for a bit. Everything is starting to knot up again. Talked myself into having another Angry Orchard Easy Apple.

Now I am calling it a night.

165 ounces of water (after I drink this cup sitting next to me) and the yoga workout this morning. Outside fo the carbs for dinner I am pretty darn happy with myself..I mean come on, free bacon and coffee today!

How did you do?

Hurt myself during yoga…..

I think I am the only person I know who has injured themselves during a yoga practice. Once I fell out of a pose and injured my shoulder. Another time I fell out of a pose and injured my hip so bad I couldn’t teach Zumba for a month. Today I think I must have done one of the poses incorrectly and now pulled something in my lower back. It keeps locking up in a painful way..bleh.

Any way this is how my food played out.

Breakfast was coffee with almond milk creamer, two cups. Cafe Latte super foods shake with dark cherries and spinach.

Went to work and brewed a cup of coffee with half and half. Then I needed something stronger so I went to the vending machine and got a bottled Starbucks Mocha frap. I was feeling cold so I brewed a cup of decaf with more half and half.

Lunchtime I had shredded chicken with a Greek vinaigrette and cabbage, broccoli salad with green olives. Half of an apple, pita crackers and humus. It was all very good!

Had an incredibly stupid stress fun day at work. Guess I should call it a day at grade school instead! I don’t understand when it happened but at some point people stopped understanding how to listen and follow directions OR when they are “grown ups” but are acting like they are thirteen and have no common sense of what a work environment should be. Okay I will stop… I was just giving you a back story to explain my dinner.

My dinner was two Angry Orcahrd Easy apples and 3 mini bell peppers.

Yep. That is my “fitness coach” nutrition at it’s best.

I am proud to say that I did at least accomplish “dinner and done”

150 ounces of water today and Yoga practice that tweeked my back.

How did you do?

Friend Time!!!

Friend time is my favorite! If it wasn’t for my friend Adam today I probably would have never gotten dressed today. Try story. I had grand intentions. Workouts and filming a new video for my YouTube page and fitness group. Some food prep. My usual Sunday things. Then I slept in for the Fall Back an Hour day. Still not used to the changing of time. I was spoiled by living in AZ. Anyway I was going to be a bum all day and sit in my jammies and just Netflix and chill out. At least I got an hour walk in around the park.

So this is how my poor, poor eating habits went this day:

Breakfast was three cups of coffee with creamer. Five yes FIVE waffles. Two of them I put some home-made raspberry jam on them. Then I cooked two eggs over easy and had two more waffles. Then when I finished cooking them started putting them away I noshed on another one!! Had a glass of grapefruit juice to wash it all down with.

Lunch wasn’t really lunch. I knew I was meeting Adam at 3 and wanted to leave early to get coffees for us and try to find the park road we always meet up on. I haven’t been on a walk with Adam for a few years and I wasn’t certain how to get there from my new place. Anyway, I had the rest of the humus and as many pita crackers as it took to eat it all. Got dressed and headed to Starbucks. I ordered the new Toasted White Chocolate Mocha. It was good, had a toasted marshmallow taste to it.

Headed up to the park and walked for about an hour or so. Most of the fall leaves had fallen which was too bad for Adam. He loves to take photos.

Came home and changed back into my jammies. Opened up a Rose Hard Cider and heated up the oven for our stuffed salmon. Don’t get too excited I bought it from the meat deli. It is salmon stuffed with crab. Made red potatoes for the hubby and I had kale salad with parmesan cheese and lemon vinaigrette. Had another hard cider and then one of the Halloween bite size dark chocolate Kit Kat bars that I had hidden in the fridge.

So much for dinner and done! I know it will be better tomorrow. Work brings a bit more structure so it will provide more structure for my food too.

Water wasn’t that great either. I had about 140 ounces today. Well below my average.

Tomorrow is another day.

How did you do?

Lasagna saved the day…..

….seriously it saved the day!! Okay maybe it just saved my lunch. Did I tell you that I chose to sleep in today? Of course I didn’t I haven’t been on here yet. #duh  Sometimes when I write I write like I talk: all over the place and half of it inside jokes in my own head. Oh well. I have like seven followers who actually read this and they all know me, so I am sure they read it like they are listening to me. (:

I did wake up late. Not really late I just didn’t want to get out of bed. I kept yelling at Siri across the room demanding she turn off my alarm for me. She wouldn’t. Then when I finally dragged my cold feet out of the bed to hit snooze the screen wouldn’t let me. So I brought the phone to my bedside and just kept restarting the ten minute timer. #somedayIwillgraspthefivesecondrule

I drank a bit last night so my weigh in this morning wasn’t so great, I don’t having another tonight. Which brings me  to my point. Time to log in my food and be transparent to the world…hahahahaha the seven people I mean. 😉

Here is how it played out today:

COFFEE!! two cups at home with creamer. Cafe Latte super foods shake with turmeric, spinach and mango.

On the way to work I stopped by the local coffee shop and had a 16 ounce mocha maple spice. Drank about half of it and then filled it back up with coffee and added some half and half to it. Still just as good.

I brought spinach salad with cucumbers and tomatoes with some Italian dressing and one Italian sausage. My friend gave me some of her left over lasagna that  her hubby (a professional chef) made. It had sausage, mushrooms and onions! So good! Totally hit the spot and filled me up.

Decided that for dinner we would have breakfast. Was going to swing by the store and get some orange juice for the hubby and I. Both are struggling with whatever form of the cold going around. I have a bit of a scratchy throat. Got to the store and it was packed and I am just too tired and sore to fight with crowds tonight. Came home and cooked up the turkey breakfast sausage patties. Made toast and scrambled cheddar eggs for the hubby. My dinner was scrambled eggs with cheese, mini bell peppers and broccoli. I ate six of the sausage patties. They are small and I am hungry. I also drank the last bottle of the Angry Orchard Knotty Pear. They need to make all their hard cider as hard. Not a fan of pear but am a fan of the higher percentage of alcohol. PS alcohol burns off the germs (my story and I am sticking to it)

I did not work out this morning. I didn’t shower either and I am sure people could smell it. I did have 170 ounces of water though, so there is that.

How did you do?

 

Muffins and banana bread…oh my!

Tis the season!! The snacks are already starting to show up in the office. Today it was homemade banana bread with fake butter, then it was mini blueberry muffins that were divine! So soft and light. So lovely I ate three of them! Eek! I emailed my hubby today to tell him we were very busy and it was going to be a very long day and in unrelated news I had consumed three muffins. TOTALLY UNRELATED! *not

This is how my food played out today:

Breakfast: coffee 3 cups today with creamer. Super foods shake vanilla with blueberries and spinach.

Work: Two more cups of coffee with creamer. Banana bread with butter. mini blueberry muffin

Lunch: The other half of my Cubano sandwich from yesterday. kale salad with pumpkin seeds and poppy seed dressing. Two more blueberry muffins

Dinner: one Italian sausage, one bell pepper 1/2 cup marinara sauce

Two pieces of the Halloween candy I bought and stashed. (I sense danger) It was two pieces of sour punch candy. It is equal to one piece of licorice.

Anyway that is how my day played out. Did 150 ounces of watering yoga workout today too!

How did you do?

 

Buffalo burgers…oh my!

A very relaxed Sunday and nothing on my to do list really got done so what do I do? I just shut down and do even less. I don’t know why I do this to myself but I do. Which is also why I will then turn around and sabotage myself with food too.

This is how today played out:

Breakfast: coffee with almond milk (2) espresso with almond milk. Blueberry donut.

Stopped up on the South Hill to pick up some cool mittens a friend made for me, so we were so close to Target again we stopped in for another coffee. Venti caffè mocha. Grabbed the bacon egg bites for some protein.

Lunch: We went to Cabellas to shop for some winter clothes for the hubby. Stopped in there for lunch. I ordered the buffalo burger no cheese and a side salad. Choose the balsamic vinaigrette and had half of that on the salad.  Had water to drink. Not bad. I kept the top off the burger and ate all of hubby’s veggies from his burger too. I did all right until I tried one of his super salty twice fried fries dipped in ketchup!! Caught myself eating about five more after that. What is it about salt??

For my dinner I had the rest of my dinner from yesterday. That meant the salad with black olives and cucumbers and onions with, you guessed it balsamic vinaigrette! Also the rest of the sausage and peppers in marinara. It was even better the second day!

 

No workout today. Water intake was 145 ounces.

How did you do?