146….

Work from your heart.

That is a phrase that has been playing in my head for the last few days. Trouble is, I don’t really know where my heart is right now. Hard to work from somewhere when you don’t know where you are.

I chalk it up to wintertime, depression and my upcoming doctor appointments. I want a good weigh in for my appointment yet I keep eating the carbs. I know this won’t work yet I keep sabotaging myself. I wanted the scale to be down by five pounds more than the number above but it won’t happen.

Water: 125 ounces

Workout: Yoga balance. Move of the day.

Breakfast: coffee and creamer, two cups (one was decaf)  Super foods shake chocolate, spinach and blueberries

Work: two cups of coffee with creamer

Lunch: tuna salad with celery and cauliflower. One slice of Daves Killer Bread. Half of a yellow bell pepper and 1 ounce of Cheez-its.

More coffee, decaf this time. Yes, there was creamer.

Dinner tonight was tacos. Yes the ones pictured above. I don’t know what it is about homemade tacos but I have to eat them ALL! I had four tacos tonight. I used ground turkey cooked in canola oil. Shredded cheese and salsa to top it off. Had a hard cider. It is the one listed above, it is made in Portland OR which is close to home so I had to try it. It is a true semi sweet. Not to bad.

I dove back into the left over ginger cookies. I had six of them. I think I will take the rest to work with me so I don’t eat them.

How did you do?

 

Salmon burgers…….

I didn’t sleep at all last night. Seriously, I didn’t. I have no idea how I was able to make it through work. I was numb in the mind and emotions (until the end of the day when I lost it) I am happy that even though I didn’t sleep I still got up and worked out with a friend. I promised I would and I showed up and that is what matters. I will tell you that I have no idea how in the heck I am still awake right now.!! I should be passed out, I feel very wide awake still. This is how it started last night. Ugh. Hope it is not another toss and turning with my brain not shutting off night..

Anyway here is how the food played out today. I have excuses but I am not going to use them. Here it is:

 

Breakfast was coffee with creamer, one cup. Super foods shake Cafe Latte flavor with spinach, almond butter and blueberries.

Get to work and have two cups of coffee with creamer and three Christmas cookies that a co-worker brought in today. Ugh. Tis’ the season.

Lunch was 1/2 cup of tuna salad with the cauliflower puree and celery. One slice of FFC bread. One cup of kale salad with parmesan cheese and croutons. Also had diluted lemon  dressing. I wanted more food so I bought a bag of Tostitos corn tortilla chips (two servings in one bag) and a cup of Tostitos nacho cheese cup.

Dinner was TWO Angry Orchard Knotty Pear Hard Cider. One cup of frozen green beans, one tablespoonful of garlic aioli and the salmon burger pictured above. The salmon burger has carrot puree in it too.  I was determined to FINALLY make this recipe forgetting that it called for putting the patties in the fridge for one hour first. Yikes! Who has time for that? So I popped them in the freezer and took a shower (I feel better after that) while they set. Hubby and I really enjoyed these! He had his on a bun. I saved one for me to have for lunch tomorrow. I will be making these again and again! So good.

I am only at about 125 ounces of water today. I did do my Yoga Flow on the Go workout this morning and that makes five days in a row. I am excited that I am developing consistency.

So, how did you do today?

I have set a goal…

I weighed in today and it was better than the last few days. I have a goal for the end of December. It is to be 141.1 pounds. Why the .1? well it means if I only get to 141.8 it will be closer or some other weird logic like that. It just looks better on paper that way. More realistic I guess.

I tried to keep a tally today on my servings of veggies. The trouble with that is two of my foods today had veggies hidden in them but I am not 100% sure if it counts as a “serving”.

Any way here is the rundown of food today:

Breakfast: Coffee and maple flavored almond milk creamer, two servings. Super foods shake cafe latte with blueberries and spinach. Added almond butter and turmeric this time too.

Get to work and have a  decaf coffee with the same creamer as above. Then I ended up brewing two more cups by noon.

Lunch: tuna salad (made with cauliflower puree and chunks of celery) One slice of Daves Killer bread (totally fits into the FFC department, fiber filled carb) cucumber slices. I had more tuna than bread so I went to the vending machine and bought a serving of whole grain Cheez-its. It also fit the FFC guidelines. 130 calories, 19 grams of carbs, 2 grams of fiber. Tasted great and I really enjoyed eating them.

Dinner was an Angry Orchard Knotty Pear Cider, the leftover burger patty from last night (it has carrot puree in it) two slices of cheddar cheese and half of a bell pepper. Hubby also made me try the new flavor of Poppable chips he had bought. I had two of them, white cheddar flavor. They were pretty good but I liked the original ones better.

If you were keeping tally of my veggies today I counted them as four; Spinach, Cucumbers, bell pepper and then for each serving of protein that had veggies hidden in them I counted as one more serving. I think that is fair, right?

I have 125 ounces of water in me so far and am half way through another 25 ounces.

I did my workout this morning: Yoga Flow. I really enjoyed it. Looking forward to the Flow on the Go tomorrow with friends.

Do you have an end of the year goal you are trying to reach? How close are you? How did you do with your tracking today?

Last day of November……

I have no idea where this day went. Seriously I arrived at work at 8 like usual, next thing I know it is 12:30…12:30! Had to leave work for a pizza run for a good-bye party for one of my co-workers. There was snow and rain and running around town. When I get back it was 2:30PM. I walk in the door and am immediately pulled back out again for more meetings. I feel like  I was never even there. Really weird day. And now it is the end of November…so crazy.

 

I woke up this morning and weighed in. It wasn’t bad but it wasn’t good. What I am disappointed about is it is higher than last month. All I could ask myself is ‘Now What’? BUT Oct. started at 147. Nov. started at 143. It is ending at 145. I am not happy with it yet it is still better than when I started in Oct. I have to keep reminding myself of this: I am still working on this and that I still have gains (technically losses).  One day at a time…. here is how my food played out today:

 

Breakfast: Coffee and creamer two cups. Super foods shake today was cafe latte, spinach and banana.

Stopped off for a Starbucks Caramel Creme Brûlée grande size. My excuse for Starbucks today was to get Tyler a goodbye coffee and a gift card. Yeah, I may have a problem…hmm.

Lunch happened about 2:45 PM when I grabbed a slice of pizza from the party and snagged a few bites before hitting the meeting. Came down scarfed it down and went in search to see if there was any left. There was, so I scarfed that one down too.

Finally get home from work and I am not sure what to make for dinner. We settled on breakfast. I made the hubby three scrambled eggs with cheese and two slices of toast. The toast smelled so good. I really wanted some. I talked myself out of it. I am pretty darn proud of that.  I had two scrambled eggs with a bit of cheese and cup of spinach. I added salsa to it and then had a couple of slice of turkey bacon (pictured above). Lots of protein and some veggies. It was very good.

All in all I feel pretty good about today even with the pizza. I made sure to have my next meal be better instead of giving into other craving.

Water was okay today, 150 ounces.

No work out today. Just happy to be home in my warm bed watching  Accidentally on Purpose crying and laughing. I am okay with this.

How did you do today?

Make better choices….

the plan was to make better choices. I follow a very simple guideline for food. Breakfast is a protein and carb (a veggie earns extra credit) Lunch is a protein, carb and veggie. If you need a snack it should be a protein and carb and only after lunch . Dinner should be veggies and protein, with the veggies being about 75% of the meal. I struggle with this. Mostly because I love carbs…today was no different. This time my carbs was a glass of champagne. I am not stressed about it. I liked it and it was nice to sit down to dinner tonight with it.

Sometimes I let all the guilt get to me about my food. I hang with people who are super healthy and fit, then I feel bad because I am not there yet. I let the guilt of my upcoming doctor appointments in December (three of them) make me feel bad that I am not down those extra six pounds I wanted from the last appointment. Unfortunately the doctors scale is always five pounds more than mine. The nurses there are not very kind about your weight and when it doesn’t budge they seem to judge you. Funny how an oncologist office can make you feel bad about you weight.

The other day my husband told me that he has seen a change in my attitude. Not in my weight, even though I am down twelve pounds from last year, guess you can’t see it. Makes me mad. Not mad enough to stick to my basic plan and that actually makes me angrier.

It truly is about making better choices on a consistent basis. Guess I am not there yet, I just have to keep trying.

Here is how my food played out today:

Breakfast two cups of coffee and creamer. Cafe Latte super foods shake with blueberries and spinach.

Work: coffee with creamer, two cups. 3 Triscuit crackers with a tablespoonful of a homemade cheese ball. (port cheese, cheddar and cream cheese) Very good.

Lunch: cottage cheese, three slices of bacon (thank you Scott Woods!) half of a honey crisp apple, spinach salad with garbanzo beans and black olives. Tossed it with balsamic vinaigrette.

Dinner tonight is pictured above: Steamed Brussel sprouts and a hamburger patty followed by the last of the champagne.

My headache is finally starting to disappear so that is a good thing.

Worked out this morning Yoga abs and ten minutes of meditation.

Water is at 185 ounces.

 

How did you do today?

Went for a drive today..

We went for a drive today. It took us over the passes. There was snow and fog the passes. I tried to snap a decent picture while we were driving. This is the best I could get. Having the snow on the trees made me want to listen to Christmas music. It was a nice drive. Because we were traveling we ate out twice today so my food may look a little questionable. I did make sure to drink plenty of water though.

Had two cups of coffee and creamer at home. Then we headed over to Clark’s Fork for breakfast. I had the “Trapper Wrap” it was filled with egg, potato, sausage gravy, and bacon. I ate half, gave a quarter to the hubby and picked the bacon out of the remains quarter. Had a 12 ounce white mocha too.

On the way back from our destination we stopped in St. Regis for snacks. I had a bottle of water and the hubby found a snack size bag of cheese gouda crackers. We split the bag, they were pretty tasty. You could totally taste the smoky gouda.

We stopped in Coeur d’Alene for a late lunch at our favorite grilled cheese restaurant, Meltz. We decided to split a ‘Gobbler’ This sandwich is amazing! Turkey, stuffing, gravy, sweet potatoes and cranberry aioli. This is my hubby’s favorite sandwich they have and it only comes out during the holidays. I hadn’t had it before. It really is very good. I had a cup of tomato bisque soup with chunks of parmesan in it. Sometimes I actually CRAVE this soup. We also had some of their homemade potato chips.

When I go home I ate three of the Girl Scout almond butter chocolates. Not a lot veggies today that is for sure. Tomorrow will be better. I HAVE to do better the next week. Doctor appointments coming up. Oncologist, DECA and yearly breast exams. Yes, I had mastectomy, no that doesn’t mean I can’t get breast cancer again. Yes, that means I have to still get checked out. Bleh.

I had 160 ounce of water total today.

How did you do?

My turn for the crud…

I have been fighting off the cold for about two weeks now. I think it has finally gotten it’s hold on me. Bleh. #thankshubby  So basically I have been in bed napping off and on since about 2PM today.  My mistake is I am binge watching the new season of the Great British Bake Off. I am really rooting for Rahul.  Watching the show makes me hungry and gives me a false sense of wanting to bake things.

This is how my food played out today:

Breakfast was three cups of coffee with creamer. One over easy egg and some hash browns. Had two glasses of grapefruit juice for my scratchy throat.

I was too tired to make anything for lunch so I ordered pizza for takeout. Hubby went and picked it up. It was sausage, black olive and mushroom. I ate three slices. It hit the spot.

Dinner was my super foods shake. Cafe Latte with spinach. It is an extra boost of vitamins. And that sums up the food for the day. Hopefully I feel better by tomorrow.

I have about 125 ounces of water so far. Probably will get another 25 ounces in tonight. I am finishing the Vegan Week on the show and I no longer hungry after watching them make meringue out of chick peas.

Hope you all stay healthy.

How did you do?

 

Free bacon and Free coffee in the same day!….

It is Wednesday and I am here to confess my food journal to you. My back was still hurting when I woke up this morning from my yoga injury this morning. It is actually better now. I went ahead and did a yoga workout this morning hoping it would work out whatever it worked in yesterday. As the day progressed it really did start feeling better. When I started my workout this morning every time I went into downward dog I could feel my back starting to spasm. Bleh.

Anyway this is how my day played out:

Breakfast: two cups of coffee with that amazing Maple flavored Almond Milk creamer. Did you know that my spell check does not like the word creamer?  Made my  super-foods shake. Today was cafe latte with spinach, dark cherries and turmeric.

Wanted to get to work earlier so I left earlier. Leaving earlier means I get to go to the coffee stand for a latte. Stopped and got a 16 ounce Maple Spice latte. AND it was FREE today!! Cool.

I am at work trying to work through my emotions and stresses from the day before keeping my head down and catching up on what I left behind from yesterday. Next thing I know my co-worker Mike taps me on the shoulder and says ‘on my desk’ I walk over  and there it is; perfectly crisp lovely bacon on his desk. AND IT WAS ALL MINE!!!Five perfect pieces of bacon. FREE bacon and FREE coffee in the SAME DAY!! Oh what a wonderful world I exist in!

As the day progressed I did need to have another cup of coffee with half and half. Yes, I said need.

Lunch time rolls around and I have my cabbage, broccoli salad with the greek vinaigrette, green olives and shredded chicken. Dang it I still can’t spell vinaigarette! Tomorrow will be the last day of that salad. The bag is empty. I will buy it again though, I really like it! Anyway I was still hungry so I ate all my snacks too. That was a piece of string cheese, cucumbers and pita crackers.

Then I was cold so I made a cup of decaf coffee with more half and half

Came home from work ON TIME (holler) it was a 7:30AM to 5:45PM day. That makes me happy..ish…

I poured out a glass of grapefruit juice (throat is scratchy) added Tito’s vodka to it, you know to kill the germs. #justify Then I made the hubby dinner which was prosciutto stuffed ravioli with pesto sauce. Caught myself eating them out of the pan. A total of sixteen out of the pan to be exact. Asked my hubby to rub my head, neck and shoulders for a bit. Everything is starting to knot up again. Talked myself into having another Angry Orchard Easy Apple.

Now I am calling it a night.

165 ounces of water (after I drink this cup sitting next to me) and the yoga workout this morning. Outside fo the carbs for dinner I am pretty darn happy with myself..I mean come on, free bacon and coffee today!

How did you do?

Hurt myself during yoga…..

I think I am the only person I know who has injured themselves during a yoga practice. Once I fell out of a pose and injured my shoulder. Another time I fell out of a pose and injured my hip so bad I couldn’t teach Zumba for a month. Today I think I must have done one of the poses incorrectly and now pulled something in my lower back. It keeps locking up in a painful way..bleh.

Any way this is how my food played out.

Breakfast was coffee with almond milk creamer, two cups. Cafe Latte super foods shake with dark cherries and spinach.

Went to work and brewed a cup of coffee with half and half. Then I needed something stronger so I went to the vending machine and got a bottled Starbucks Mocha frap. I was feeling cold so I brewed a cup of decaf with more half and half.

Lunchtime I had shredded chicken with a Greek vinaigrette and cabbage, broccoli salad with green olives. Half of an apple, pita crackers and humus. It was all very good!

Had an incredibly stupid stress fun day at work. Guess I should call it a day at grade school instead! I don’t understand when it happened but at some point people stopped understanding how to listen and follow directions OR when they are “grown ups” but are acting like they are thirteen and have no common sense of what a work environment should be. Okay I will stop… I was just giving you a back story to explain my dinner.

My dinner was two Angry Orcahrd Easy apples and 3 mini bell peppers.

Yep. That is my “fitness coach” nutrition at it’s best.

I am proud to say that I did at least accomplish “dinner and done”

150 ounces of water today and Yoga practice that tweeked my back.

How did you do?

And basically all the chicken skin….

Happy November, Happy Monday, Happy day to me!

Yes that is a picture of  a baking sheet that has some stuck on chicken bits to it. Yes, I am a horrible cook and worse yet a horrible cleaner upper! The true grit of this picture though is the last little bits of chicken skin that I left behind. Gasp! How did I leave them behind? They were stuck, that is how.

I have a history with fried chicken skin. We go way back. Back to the days when I was working in retail pharmacy as a technician. Osco Drug. Do they still have Osco’s? I am not sure. They are very regional and out where I live now it is not an Osco region. Not a CVS region either, but that is a whole other blog topic.

Anyhoo, once upon a time the company bought KFC for the staff. My friend Bea was at lunch before me. She peeled all the skin off of her chicken to make it ‘healthier’. When she was done she left all the skins on her plate and placed her plate at the top of the trash heap. Well, and this is a TRUE story my friends, I LOVE chicken skin especially when it is deep-fried by the Colonel himself. So I walked over to her plate that I personally saw her discard and proceeded to eat all the skins! YES I DID!! Oh boy, and I wonder why I struggled so much with my weight back in AZ. I struggle now but I am much more aware of what I am doing that makes me struggle so much. (thanks to tracking) What does this have to do with my food tracking for today? Let me break it down for you:

Breakfast was two cups of coffee with Maple flavored almond milk creamer. My super foods shake (vanilla today with mango and spinach)

Get to work and make another cup of coffee with half and half. End up having two cups.

Lunch time was kale and brussels sprout salad with tomatoes, parmesan cheese and lemon vinaigrette. Half of an apple and half a cup of cottage cheese. My friend then share a slice of Papa Murphey’s New York style pizza with me. It was a pepperoni and sausage.

Got home and I am tired and chilled and still have to make lunches for tomorrow and dinner for tonight. So I just open yp a bottle of Angry Orcahrd Rose hard apple cider. Added a splash of Tito’s vodka to it. Yep, I did. I decided to cook up the bacon cheddear hamburger patties for dinner. Put hubby’s of a couple of slices of bread. Figured my carbs were liquid so I didn’t really need any more of them. I finihed of the rest of the kale and brussels sprout salad with the same type of dressing. (I always have to use spell check for the word vinaigrette) Meanwhile I decide to shred up the rotisserie chicken I got from the store and proceeded to eat basically ALL the skin off of it. OH BOY!! What the what?!?!?

To finish off the night I had what I hope to be the last of the Halloween candy. It was the dark chocolate (good for you, right?) Kit Kat snack size bar.

I am however finishing up on 175 ounces of water now and I did do Yoga abs this morning so my whole day was not too bad.

What is one of your weird food addictions?

How did you do today?