shhh….there’s veggies in there….

Seriously, there are veggies in the dinner tonight. Okay I know in my picture above it is obvious there are veggies in my dinner, but in my hubby’s dinner it was rice and chicken. I added cauliflower puree to the sauce the chicken was cooked in! He liked the taste of it too! One more day of adding something nutritious to his food. One day closer to bringing him over to my side…..bwahahahahahahaha…..

Had breakfast with one of very good friends today. We get to see each other a couple times a year, mostly from scheduling. Anyway we went to a very local yet beloved place today called Kalico Kitchen. I love our face to face visit and covet the time with her. It is a very blessed way to start a Sunday off.  Anyhoo, this is how my food day played out:

Coffee with creamer two cups. Headed out to breakfast had three more cups of coffee with half and half and sugar. Three cups. Ordered the egg tacos. These are very good. It was two fried corn tortillas stuffed with scrambled eggs, cheese and bacon. I added salsa to them too.

I ran to the grocery store after our breakfast, tried to do my shopping without a plan. Ha! that is never a good idea! Forgot stuff and bought things I didn’t need. #bigsigh

Got home and helped myself to three pieces of the Girl Scout Almond Butter cups along with half of a bell pepper and half of a peeled slice cucumber. Guess I will call that lunch today.

Made dinner tonight, pictured above. It is one of the recipes from the Jessica Seinfeld cookbooks. It was called creamy chicken. I served mine over veggies in an effort to get back to protein/veggies for dinner. It was pretty tasty. I made rice for the hubby. I had enough leftover rice and chicken that it will be my lunch tomorrow with more of the roasted veggies. I like having lunch packed and ready the day before. Gives me more time in the morning.

I did decide to have ‘dessert’ tonight. Made myself a super foods shake. I had vanilla shake with turmeric and cinnamon. I added ice cubes to make it more shake like. It was a nice dessert! Adding the turmeric made it like golden milk that I used to make when going through chemotherapy.

I actually did a workout today!?!?!? A full thirty minute workout that is! Yoga all over body workout.

Had 160 ounces of water today too. I am feeling pretty good about myself about now. It isn’t perfect (neither am I) but it is better than I have been doing. I am CHOOSING to make better choices from here on out. Especially after the hubby informed me that he has noticed attitude changes in me but not more than ten pound physical changes in me. #saddays My end goal is to make him proud of me and this means I am not near my goal yet. I must work harder.

Well that is how I tracked today.

How did you do?

another day done…

Woke up today. Sometimes I feel like that is half the battle. The other half is minding my emotions when I don’t feel well or am tired. Seriously, it is hard to keep my mouth shut and my emotions from telling me to eat. Today was one of those days. I didn’t keep my emotions under control when things went wrong. I am tired from not feeling well and that didn’t help either. There is no food in the house and my plan was to go after work. That didn’t happen either. Too tired, too emotional, too many excuses.

I called my hubby told him I was leaving work and I was too tired to go to the store. He said come on home. I did. I ordered Chinese takeout. I am now over full and slightly embarrassed to tell you what I ate this time. Yet here I am confessing to you once again.

Breakfast: coffee with almond milk creamer (shoot I don’t have any for tomorrow) three cups. Cafe Latte super foods shake with almond butter and blueberries.

Went to work and had another cup of coffee with creamer. Then I ran up to the coffee shop and got a 16 ounce dirty Chai latte.

For lunch I had a cabbage/romaine salad with bacon bits and a maple bacon vinaigrette. Half of an apple. A serving of raw almonds.

Now dinner is a much different story: Chinese take out that involves seven fried cheese wontons dipped in sweet and sour sauce. Two spring rolls dipped in sweet and sour sauce. Broccoli, it came in the orange chicken container. Orange chicken, a few pieces of plain fried chicken that I, yep you guessed it, dipped in sweet and sour sauce. One fortune cookie that said ‘luck is coming my way’. Wish it said health and sleep were coming my way.

No workout today. Although I did shower so that is one step better than the weekend.

Water was okay. 150 ounces.

How did you do today?

What’s in a glass of water…

There is so much in a glass of water. The more I continue on my journey for health and healing I am learning this. I have always been a big advocate for water and it’s benefits and now the more education I have in health and nutrition I will become an even BIGGER pusher of the water!!

It helps your skin and your lungs and your normal poop cycle. It helps flush out toxins and bad tasting food. It makes you feel full so you don’t eat more than you should. Many people do not drink enough water throughout the day. In fact, the majority of the time you feel hungry you are probably dehydrated and just thirsty for water!! It is true!

When you are thirsty something triggers in your brain to tell your body….meanwhile your body like to play tricks on you and tell you that it really needs a cup cake STAT!! (not speaking from experience at all!)

Anyway, I have had a lot of water today. I know this because I tracked it. So far I am up to  140 ounces!! Now if all that water would ease my hot flashes that would be awesome!

There is a rumor going around that menopausal women (like me) can’t lose weight. I am going to prove them wrong. Will it be overnight? Ha! Nope. Will it be next month? Well possibly but not enough for anyone to notice except the scale. Will it be overtime little by little with lots of trial and error? YES!!!! Logging my food on here has helped me a lot. It shows you and me that no one is perfect no matter how much fitness and health and behavior classes they have taken. That we all eat foods for a reason: Comfort, emotions, socializing. That we speak negatively to our selves about ourselves and there is no success in that EVER.

So with that said here is the food for the day for me:

Breakfast: vanilla shake with 1 cup spinach and 1/2 cup blueberries. Coffee with 3 tablespoons of vanilla almond milk, then an espresso with more almond milk.

I was taking classes this morning and I was cold and tired so I made another cup of coffee with almond milk. Then I wanted something sweet so I added two pumps of the sugar-free salted caramel syrup to a cup of decaf with , yes almond milk.

Lunch today was the last slice of pizza from yesterday and more of the greek salad with the balsamic vinaigrette on it.

I was feeling restless and bored so I had a snack today. Had humus and a serving of the Ritz Pita crackers. They are pretty good and I like the salty crunchy aspect of them today.

Dinner: Water first of course. Had shrimp that I cooked in olive oil and a little butter with some fresh garlic. Served it more of the greek salad (almost done with the salad enough for my lunch tomorrow)

So far today I am feeling pretty good about my food. Feeling full and emotionally satisfied too.  I have pooped today and as I mentioned 140 ounces of water.

No workout today. It was a lazy watch Netflix with the hubby do some studies and classes on-line kind of day.

How did you do?

Last night I slept without a bra on….

I know this may not seem like much to you. In fact I would venture to guess the majority of people sleep without bras on. I used to be one of those people.

When I had the double mastectomy with reconstruction I came home from the hospital wearing a velcro wrap. It was tight and uncomfortable. It was necessary to wear to keep the swelling down and to make sure my new foobs stayed in place and would look symmetrical. Eventually I was allowed to exchange the wrap for a sports bra. I had to wear the sports bra all the time, including at night.

As time went on and the expanders were filled to the capacity I wanted, I was able to wear my ‘pretty bras’ again during the day. At night the expanders were so uncomfortable and unmovable that I would wear the sports bra or the surgery bra to bed to be a buffer. Laying on my side was tricky and the support of a bra helped.

Because of chemotherapy the exchange surgery had to be postponed for months. MONTHS! I had to wear the hard and awkward expanders for ten months. That meant continuing to sleep in a bra or some sort of supportive garment.

Last night I felt confident enough to sleep without a bra on. I slept on my side, on my back and on the other side. It felt wonderful and honestly I almost felt normal. NORMAL!?!?!?!?! Is that such a thing? I can’t even recall feeling normal, except for those rare occasional moments that last for just a minute or two.

I have a followup appointment this coming week with the plastic surgeon. I think everything looks great, as great as it is can get considering. I am looking forward to her telling me that. And that I will be able to jog again. And that I can wear my pretty bras that I just bought from an online company that specializes in bras for mastectomy and reconstruction patients. They are expensive but very pretty. I want to be as normal as possible, I think the new bras will help. So will the jogging. So will the ‘all is clear and good’ from the doctor.

No bra at night, pretty bras during the day. Who knows, next I might wear jeans again.

 

Just a few scattered thoughts..

Today I woke up with chaffing on my inner thighs! How can I get chaffing in my sleep?!?! All I can figure is the night sweats are so bad that the inner thighs are sticking together with all the slimy sweat that they are feeling chaffed but are really just chapped. Chapped thighs, from sweat, in my sleep. Can it get any sexier than that?

I know that this next surgery is going to directly affect my abs so in my Cancercize with Renee B videos I have been hitting them “hard”. I use that term loosely because I am still not at full workout capacity. It must be working because my abs are SORE!!! So sore that now I worry that I over did it and will make recovery very challenging.

Also, speaking of  Cancercize with Renee B on YouTube : https://youtu.be/3t8Agt5Cn0s As of today I will have worked out 120 days in a row!! IN A ROW!! This is huge in my eyes. Especially when you consider that I started after my double amputation and while going through chemotherapy. I know the workouts are not super intense and sometimes not very long. It doesn’t matter. I moved, on purpose, 120 days in a row. It is documented on YouTube. This makes me happy. No it is not why my thighs feel chaffed.

Surgery is tomorrow. I am not allowed to eat or drink after midnight tonight. That means no coffee in the morning. I get caffeine headaches if I don’t have a cup in the morning (not addicted) do you think if I drink coffee all day today it will hold me over? That is what I do with the water. I must have water first thing in the morning too or I feel lousy all day.

I find it odd that the hospital hasn’t called yet to do the pre check in. It is a different hospital this time but they are all part of the same network so maybe they just assume I read my letter from a few weeks ago and I just remember to not eat or drink. To not take ibuprofen one week before (I kind of forgot but I think it was a week ago I took it) To not shave the surgery area. I have no idea what I am to wear after the surgery since my stomach will have holes and be bloated. I do not have prescriptions yet for pain or infection. It is a bit unsettling. Maybe they will call today.

I think there is a possibility I do have chaffing after all. I tried to put jeans on the other day for work since it has ‘cooled’ off a bit over here. As soon as I put them on my body went into heat stroke mode….so put on the dress. That means thigh on thigh action when I walk at work. I need to find my Glide and apply it today.

I have decided. I am drinking ALL the coffee and all the water today. I am going to do a squat workout and later tonight some distressing stretching to calm my nerves. The chaffing will disappear since I will be not moving so much in the next few days. I am still going to see Paula. Chapped thighs and bloated gut and all.

Warned you, scattered thoughts. Thanks for hanging in and finishing this rambling with me. Have a great day!! I am all hopped up on coffee and nerves so you know mine will be entertaining to others at least. (: