I don’t know why…

I don’t know why I get my hopes up. I know who I married. Don’t get me wrong I ADORE my husband Keith. He is so beyond amazing to me and all that I have put him through (see past blogs) but, lets face it girls we want men that just FEEL our wants without having to tell them, right? Ha ha. You are probably wondering, Renee what does this have to do with your accountability food blog you are starting? Well let me tell you…

Breakfast: 2 cups of coffee with the last of the almond milk creamer. Vanilla superfoods shake that after I added the fresh spinach and frozen blueberries it looked chocolate. Tasted good so that is all that mattered.

Work: (don’t you like how I make work a meal) 2 cups of coffee with half and half on k-cup cafe latte vanilla. 1/4 cup raw almonds

Lunch: 1/2 apple, homemade coleslaw and tuna with veggies.

Snack: I went to the vending machine. I really wanted wheat thins but we were out so I was going to pick up the Sabra Humus snack pack and saw that it was 320 calories!! so I picked up the savory snack pack. It was 130 calories total and had grapes, baby carrots, pretzels and little cubes of cheddar cheese. I felt pretty good about that choice and it helped hit the salt I was craving.

THEN I text my hubby and tell him how I am so, so, soooo hungry and I want spaghetti and meatballs with a crap ton of garlic toast and the strongest bottle of wine possible but that I would settle for drinking my water..I guess. He simply text back with “ok” “OK”!!! What the frak!!! What do you mean ok?? Can’t you read through the lines and see that I am STARVING!?!?!?!?

I get home hoping to find some type of dinner made for me involving lots of carbs. Nope. Nada. Nothing. Sigh. I love my husband I love my husband I love my husband… I really do I was just hopeful…. so here goes my horrible dinner confession:

Dinner: 2 packages of Little Debbie Swiss Roll snack cakes…not two rolls (1 serving) BUT 2 packs equaling 4 rolls. But wait there is more. While I am eating the chocolate and drinking a can of Truly hard sparkling water with the second can on the counter waiting to be opened and inhaled soon, I am cooking the hubby’s dinner of fettuccine alfredo. I think to myself, ‘Renee, you need some type of protein Little Debbie and alcohol is not enough for dinner’ So I pop a hot dog and some sauerkraut in the microwave for my “REAL” dinner.

bleh… I will get there. I know I will. I was thinking that I might make my shake my DINNER since I am always so tired after work and so hungry. It is fast and easy to make. Keith can fend for himself, right?

How are you doing?

Always a down hill…

I left my lunch at work yesterday. I left it there on purpose. It still had the  tuna with veggies in it and my almonds and fresh raspberries. I brought a bag of fresh spinach to go with it today. #goodintentions

Had my superfoods shake. Today was chocolate, dark cherries and spinach. It always fills me up until lunch…..well that and three cups of espresso!!

My lunch time rolled around and I was so busy I didn’t go.  An hour went by and I still didn’t go. So now the downhill begins. My freind from work went to Mc’Donald’s and I talked him into getting me a double cheeseburger meal with a coke.   Ate the burger a few of the fries and inhaled the coke! #rollingdownthehill

Dinner time is pizza from Dinardi’s #love Pizza and salad and Lemon Basil Hard Cider…. man once I start down that hill I never stop rolling.

One more day done and tomorrow is a new start.

Marching back up that hill.

 

Wishing for Jalapeños……

Feeling under the weather today. A little bit of a sore throat and body aches. Bleh. When I get a sore throat I always want to eat jalapeños. PS in order to spell that I pronounce it out like ja lop e no s………..anyway that is my excuse for not eating well today. Funny how I feel I need to explain my bad habits..in a sense, justify them.

Breakfast: vanilla shake with peaches and arugula. Added almond butter today too. Coffee with almond milk. Espresso with chocolate milk. Workout this morning was Yoga strength.

At work. More coffee with half and half (2) a bite of a wonderful raspberry croissant a co-worker brought back from Seattle. Also a small container of blackberries (same co-worker brought those too)

Lunch: chicken, apple, beet kale salad, pita chips and humus

Dinner: the rest of the macaroni salad from yesterday and the left over hot dog in a bun with mustard and cheese. An hour later went down stairs and ransacked the cabinets and ran across some beef jerky. Had half of that.

Lots of water and now I am taking some ibuprofen and heading to bed…again.

How are you doing?

Nacho average taco Tuesday…

The point of tracking and writing down my food is that it is supposed to help me get this eating thing under control. The theory is that if you have to take a notebook out for every little thing you eat you will want to stop eating so much just so you don’t have to write it down. I decided that I would confess my food in my blog and that will some how deter me from making such bad choices… so far it hasn’t. Yet I am still tracking and sharing… so here we go:

Breakfast: chocolate superfoods shake with dark cherries and spinach. Coffee with almond milk. Then a cup of espresso with chocolate milk.

Work: coworker was running late. To make it up to me he bought me a froo froo coffee. Coconut Cluster..it was good. Coconut, praline and vanilla in it. So good. I am quit positive it has a lot of calories in it though.

Lunch: Coca-cola, salad with homemade dressing, chicken, tomatoes, cucumbers and goat cheese.

Snack: I tried the coconut chocolate almond yogurt mix-ins by Yoplait..it was so good!! Also ate my raw almonds.

Then I drove home….and had tacos.. 2 old taco shells that I stuffed with shredded pork and cheese and a few black olives (sorry to those who don’t like them) and snap peas… I would have been alright if I would have just stopped there..but oh no! not me.. so I crumbled up the rest of the shells (five of them) and covered them with cheese and salsa and ate them like nachos. Then I decided I needed something sweet so I drank a glass of chocolate milk.

Maybe the trick is to log the food WHEN you eat it instead of at the end of the day. If I physically had to take a tracker book out each time I ate I wouldn’t have time to so I wouldn’t eat!?!

Have you tried tracking your food? Or any bad habit that you want to quit? Did it work for you?  I will keep on going.. something has got to change.. and it will be me and my appetite.

The food confessions continues..

Trying to write down EVERYTHING I eat is the challenge. Confessing it to you is the punishment. I don’t know, sounds good in theory….so here is the Friday update of carbo-loading for sleeping in on Saturday..

Breakfast: dense nutrition shake cafe latte with mixed berry…I always seem to get this part right.. then 3 cups of coffee with half and half. Stopped at the coffee shop and got a coconut crinkle…coconut, vanilla and praline flavored. Half way through I added drip coffee and more half and half to it…oh boy I see a cycle her.

Next I had a small piece of steak and a Bavarian sausage stick that was amazing!! (my ankles are starting to swell now) Lunch rolled around and that is what is my picture above…the rest of my friends steak, he claimed to not be hungry anymore I was more than accepting. Also pictured is the rest of the squash/mushroom/onion pesto thing I made the other day. Grabbed another soda, I don’t know why I keep drinking these things. Three this week alone! Prior to that it had been months since I had a soda. Weird. Also I had some carrot sticks to top it off.

Got out of work pretty early tonight, 5:30 to be exact. Just in time to make it to happy hour at the ball park. So dinner consisted of Angry Orchard and fried cheese curds. Went for a decaf vanilla latte (it was chilly tonight) and two churros…one for me one for the hubby. For whatever reason the churros were awful this time. Hard and extra chewy. Like chewing on leather. Did this stop me from eating it? Nope!! What is wrong with me? No seriously, who eats like this? ESPECIALLY who eats like this and expects to lose weight and be healthy??

One day at a time. Apparently one moment at a time. I WILL WIN THIS!
How are you doing on your relationship with food?