146….

Work from your heart.

That is a phrase that has been playing in my head for the last few days. Trouble is, I don’t really know where my heart is right now. Hard to work from somewhere when you don’t know where you are.

I chalk it up to wintertime, depression and my upcoming doctor appointments. I want a good weigh in for my appointment yet I keep eating the carbs. I know this won’t work yet I keep sabotaging myself. I wanted the scale to be down by five pounds more than the number above but it won’t happen.

Water: 125 ounces

Workout: Yoga balance. Move of the day.

Breakfast: coffee and creamer, two cups (one was decaf)  Super foods shake chocolate, spinach and blueberries

Work: two cups of coffee with creamer

Lunch: tuna salad with celery and cauliflower. One slice of Daves Killer Bread. Half of a yellow bell pepper and 1 ounce of Cheez-its.

More coffee, decaf this time. Yes, there was creamer.

Dinner tonight was tacos. Yes the ones pictured above. I don’t know what it is about homemade tacos but I have to eat them ALL! I had four tacos tonight. I used ground turkey cooked in canola oil. Shredded cheese and salsa to top it off. Had a hard cider. It is the one listed above, it is made in Portland OR which is close to home so I had to try it. It is a true semi sweet. Not to bad.

I dove back into the left over ginger cookies. I had six of them. I think I will take the rest to work with me so I don’t eat them.

How did you do?

 

Salmon burgers…….

I didn’t sleep at all last night. Seriously, I didn’t. I have no idea how I was able to make it through work. I was numb in the mind and emotions (until the end of the day when I lost it) I am happy that even though I didn’t sleep I still got up and worked out with a friend. I promised I would and I showed up and that is what matters. I will tell you that I have no idea how in the heck I am still awake right now.!! I should be passed out, I feel very wide awake still. This is how it started last night. Ugh. Hope it is not another toss and turning with my brain not shutting off night..

Anyway here is how the food played out today. I have excuses but I am not going to use them. Here it is:

 

Breakfast was coffee with creamer, one cup. Super foods shake Cafe Latte flavor with spinach, almond butter and blueberries.

Get to work and have two cups of coffee with creamer and three Christmas cookies that a co-worker brought in today. Ugh. Tis’ the season.

Lunch was 1/2 cup of tuna salad with the cauliflower puree and celery. One slice of FFC bread. One cup of kale salad with parmesan cheese and croutons. Also had diluted lemon  dressing. I wanted more food so I bought a bag of Tostitos corn tortilla chips (two servings in one bag) and a cup of Tostitos nacho cheese cup.

Dinner was TWO Angry Orchard Knotty Pear Hard Cider. One cup of frozen green beans, one tablespoonful of garlic aioli and the salmon burger pictured above. The salmon burger has carrot puree in it too.  I was determined to FINALLY make this recipe forgetting that it called for putting the patties in the fridge for one hour first. Yikes! Who has time for that? So I popped them in the freezer and took a shower (I feel better after that) while they set. Hubby and I really enjoyed these! He had his on a bun. I saved one for me to have for lunch tomorrow. I will be making these again and again! So good.

I am only at about 125 ounces of water today. I did do my Yoga Flow on the Go workout this morning and that makes five days in a row. I am excited that I am developing consistency.

So, how did you do today?

Make better choices….

the plan was to make better choices. I follow a very simple guideline for food. Breakfast is a protein and carb (a veggie earns extra credit) Lunch is a protein, carb and veggie. If you need a snack it should be a protein and carb and only after lunch . Dinner should be veggies and protein, with the veggies being about 75% of the meal. I struggle with this. Mostly because I love carbs…today was no different. This time my carbs was a glass of champagne. I am not stressed about it. I liked it and it was nice to sit down to dinner tonight with it.

Sometimes I let all the guilt get to me about my food. I hang with people who are super healthy and fit, then I feel bad because I am not there yet. I let the guilt of my upcoming doctor appointments in December (three of them) make me feel bad that I am not down those extra six pounds I wanted from the last appointment. Unfortunately the doctors scale is always five pounds more than mine. The nurses there are not very kind about your weight and when it doesn’t budge they seem to judge you. Funny how an oncologist office can make you feel bad about you weight.

The other day my husband told me that he has seen a change in my attitude. Not in my weight, even though I am down twelve pounds from last year, guess you can’t see it. Makes me mad. Not mad enough to stick to my basic plan and that actually makes me angrier.

It truly is about making better choices on a consistent basis. Guess I am not there yet, I just have to keep trying.

Here is how my food played out today:

Breakfast two cups of coffee and creamer. Cafe Latte super foods shake with blueberries and spinach.

Work: coffee with creamer, two cups. 3 Triscuit crackers with a tablespoonful of a homemade cheese ball. (port cheese, cheddar and cream cheese) Very good.

Lunch: cottage cheese, three slices of bacon (thank you Scott Woods!) half of a honey crisp apple, spinach salad with garbanzo beans and black olives. Tossed it with balsamic vinaigrette.

Dinner tonight is pictured above: Steamed Brussel sprouts and a hamburger patty followed by the last of the champagne.

My headache is finally starting to disappear so that is a good thing.

Worked out this morning Yoga abs and ten minutes of meditation.

Water is at 185 ounces.

 

How did you do today?

Went for a drive today..

We went for a drive today. It took us over the passes. There was snow and fog the passes. I tried to snap a decent picture while we were driving. This is the best I could get. Having the snow on the trees made me want to listen to Christmas music. It was a nice drive. Because we were traveling we ate out twice today so my food may look a little questionable. I did make sure to drink plenty of water though.

Had two cups of coffee and creamer at home. Then we headed over to Clark’s Fork for breakfast. I had the “Trapper Wrap” it was filled with egg, potato, sausage gravy, and bacon. I ate half, gave a quarter to the hubby and picked the bacon out of the remains quarter. Had a 12 ounce white mocha too.

On the way back from our destination we stopped in St. Regis for snacks. I had a bottle of water and the hubby found a snack size bag of cheese gouda crackers. We split the bag, they were pretty tasty. You could totally taste the smoky gouda.

We stopped in Coeur d’Alene for a late lunch at our favorite grilled cheese restaurant, Meltz. We decided to split a ‘Gobbler’ This sandwich is amazing! Turkey, stuffing, gravy, sweet potatoes and cranberry aioli. This is my hubby’s favorite sandwich they have and it only comes out during the holidays. I hadn’t had it before. It really is very good. I had a cup of tomato bisque soup with chunks of parmesan in it. Sometimes I actually CRAVE this soup. We also had some of their homemade potato chips.

When I go home I ate three of the Girl Scout almond butter chocolates. Not a lot veggies today that is for sure. Tomorrow will be better. I HAVE to do better the next week. Doctor appointments coming up. Oncologist, DECA and yearly breast exams. Yes, I had mastectomy, no that doesn’t mean I can’t get breast cancer again. Yes, that means I have to still get checked out. Bleh.

I had 160 ounce of water total today.

How did you do?

It’s a Charlie Brown Thanksgiving….

… My husband was worried that he missed the Charlie Brown Thanksgiving special the other day. He kept asking me if we had missed it. He was so happy to find out it was on tonight. I got home after work AND running to the store the night before Thanksgiving (crazy like that) Hubby said that no matter what he was watching Charlie Brown tonight and I was welcome to join him. So I did.

When I was listening to Darren Hardy today for my PD he shared something that stuck with me today: When in doubt choose the harder task. The one you don’t want to do is usually the one you SHOULD do. So much truth to that!!  If I want a trimmer waist line then I MUST do the hard things. Like NOT going to the coffee shop for the special today. Which by the way was hard for me. It is maple spice latte, my favorite and I wanted one so bad……talked myself out of it. I will admit it took a lot of talking but I did talk myself out of it.

Anyway, here is the breakdown of food today:

Breakfast: Coffee with creamer, two cups. Today’s super foods shake was vanilla with spinach, mango almond butter and a splash of turmeric.

Got to work, SKIPPING the coffee shop mind you, and had four cups of coffee with the amazing maple almond milk creamer that I am now officially addicted to.

Long day at my desk waiting for FedEx to call me back, they didn’t so I snacked on some of the Girl Scout sea salted Cashews that I had just bought from one of my staff, you know to support their kid… (sheesh I am a sucker) had 1/2 cup of cashews.

Eventually I went to lunch about 2:30 because my team made me go. I wasn’t really hungry and I wasn’t super excited about my lunch either. I ate some of it; half an apple, 2 cups of spinach with pumpkin seeds and more of that dijon dressing.

After my “quick run” to the grocery store I settled into home for my dinner. Hubby made himself a couple of cheese crisps, I had veggies and an Italian sausage with one cup of the roasted veggies (they are so good still) and Wicked Green Apple cider the whole bottle.

Watched Charlie Brown Thanksgiving with the hubby and am currently cuddled up in a warm bed watching Monk on Amazon Prime. I am very happy in my little world right now.

Water is 150 ounces today. No workout.

 

How did you do?

another day done…

Woke up today. Sometimes I feel like that is half the battle. The other half is minding my emotions when I don’t feel well or am tired. Seriously, it is hard to keep my mouth shut and my emotions from telling me to eat. Today was one of those days. I didn’t keep my emotions under control when things went wrong. I am tired from not feeling well and that didn’t help either. There is no food in the house and my plan was to go after work. That didn’t happen either. Too tired, too emotional, too many excuses.

I called my hubby told him I was leaving work and I was too tired to go to the store. He said come on home. I did. I ordered Chinese takeout. I am now over full and slightly embarrassed to tell you what I ate this time. Yet here I am confessing to you once again.

Breakfast: coffee with almond milk creamer (shoot I don’t have any for tomorrow) three cups. Cafe Latte super foods shake with almond butter and blueberries.

Went to work and had another cup of coffee with creamer. Then I ran up to the coffee shop and got a 16 ounce dirty Chai latte.

For lunch I had a cabbage/romaine salad with bacon bits and a maple bacon vinaigrette. Half of an apple. A serving of raw almonds.

Now dinner is a much different story: Chinese take out that involves seven fried cheese wontons dipped in sweet and sour sauce. Two spring rolls dipped in sweet and sour sauce. Broccoli, it came in the orange chicken container. Orange chicken, a few pieces of plain fried chicken that I, yep you guessed it, dipped in sweet and sour sauce. One fortune cookie that said ‘luck is coming my way’. Wish it said health and sleep were coming my way.

No workout today. Although I did shower so that is one step better than the weekend.

Water was okay. 150 ounces.

How did you do today?

Free bacon and Free coffee in the same day!….

It is Wednesday and I am here to confess my food journal to you. My back was still hurting when I woke up this morning from my yoga injury this morning. It is actually better now. I went ahead and did a yoga workout this morning hoping it would work out whatever it worked in yesterday. As the day progressed it really did start feeling better. When I started my workout this morning every time I went into downward dog I could feel my back starting to spasm. Bleh.

Anyway this is how my day played out:

Breakfast: two cups of coffee with that amazing Maple flavored Almond Milk creamer. Did you know that my spell check does not like the word creamer?  Made my  super-foods shake. Today was cafe latte with spinach, dark cherries and turmeric.

Wanted to get to work earlier so I left earlier. Leaving earlier means I get to go to the coffee stand for a latte. Stopped and got a 16 ounce Maple Spice latte. AND it was FREE today!! Cool.

I am at work trying to work through my emotions and stresses from the day before keeping my head down and catching up on what I left behind from yesterday. Next thing I know my co-worker Mike taps me on the shoulder and says ‘on my desk’ I walk over  and there it is; perfectly crisp lovely bacon on his desk. AND IT WAS ALL MINE!!!Five perfect pieces of bacon. FREE bacon and FREE coffee in the SAME DAY!! Oh what a wonderful world I exist in!

As the day progressed I did need to have another cup of coffee with half and half. Yes, I said need.

Lunch time rolls around and I have my cabbage, broccoli salad with the greek vinaigrette, green olives and shredded chicken. Dang it I still can’t spell vinaigarette! Tomorrow will be the last day of that salad. The bag is empty. I will buy it again though, I really like it! Anyway I was still hungry so I ate all my snacks too. That was a piece of string cheese, cucumbers and pita crackers.

Then I was cold so I made a cup of decaf coffee with more half and half

Came home from work ON TIME (holler) it was a 7:30AM to 5:45PM day. That makes me happy..ish…

I poured out a glass of grapefruit juice (throat is scratchy) added Tito’s vodka to it, you know to kill the germs. #justify Then I made the hubby dinner which was prosciutto stuffed ravioli with pesto sauce. Caught myself eating them out of the pan. A total of sixteen out of the pan to be exact. Asked my hubby to rub my head, neck and shoulders for a bit. Everything is starting to knot up again. Talked myself into having another Angry Orchard Easy Apple.

Now I am calling it a night.

165 ounces of water (after I drink this cup sitting next to me) and the yoga workout this morning. Outside fo the carbs for dinner I am pretty darn happy with myself..I mean come on, free bacon and coffee today!

How did you do?

Hurt myself during yoga…..

I think I am the only person I know who has injured themselves during a yoga practice. Once I fell out of a pose and injured my shoulder. Another time I fell out of a pose and injured my hip so bad I couldn’t teach Zumba for a month. Today I think I must have done one of the poses incorrectly and now pulled something in my lower back. It keeps locking up in a painful way..bleh.

Any way this is how my food played out.

Breakfast was coffee with almond milk creamer, two cups. Cafe Latte super foods shake with dark cherries and spinach.

Went to work and brewed a cup of coffee with half and half. Then I needed something stronger so I went to the vending machine and got a bottled Starbucks Mocha frap. I was feeling cold so I brewed a cup of decaf with more half and half.

Lunchtime I had shredded chicken with a Greek vinaigrette and cabbage, broccoli salad with green olives. Half of an apple, pita crackers and humus. It was all very good!

Had an incredibly stupid stress fun day at work. Guess I should call it a day at grade school instead! I don’t understand when it happened but at some point people stopped understanding how to listen and follow directions OR when they are “grown ups” but are acting like they are thirteen and have no common sense of what a work environment should be. Okay I will stop… I was just giving you a back story to explain my dinner.

My dinner was two Angry Orcahrd Easy apples and 3 mini bell peppers.

Yep. That is my “fitness coach” nutrition at it’s best.

I am proud to say that I did at least accomplish “dinner and done”

150 ounces of water today and Yoga practice that tweeked my back.

How did you do?

And basically all the chicken skin….

Happy November, Happy Monday, Happy day to me!

Yes that is a picture of  a baking sheet that has some stuck on chicken bits to it. Yes, I am a horrible cook and worse yet a horrible cleaner upper! The true grit of this picture though is the last little bits of chicken skin that I left behind. Gasp! How did I leave them behind? They were stuck, that is how.

I have a history with fried chicken skin. We go way back. Back to the days when I was working in retail pharmacy as a technician. Osco Drug. Do they still have Osco’s? I am not sure. They are very regional and out where I live now it is not an Osco region. Not a CVS region either, but that is a whole other blog topic.

Anyhoo, once upon a time the company bought KFC for the staff. My friend Bea was at lunch before me. She peeled all the skin off of her chicken to make it ‘healthier’. When she was done she left all the skins on her plate and placed her plate at the top of the trash heap. Well, and this is a TRUE story my friends, I LOVE chicken skin especially when it is deep-fried by the Colonel himself. So I walked over to her plate that I personally saw her discard and proceeded to eat all the skins! YES I DID!! Oh boy, and I wonder why I struggled so much with my weight back in AZ. I struggle now but I am much more aware of what I am doing that makes me struggle so much. (thanks to tracking) What does this have to do with my food tracking for today? Let me break it down for you:

Breakfast was two cups of coffee with Maple flavored almond milk creamer. My super foods shake (vanilla today with mango and spinach)

Get to work and make another cup of coffee with half and half. End up having two cups.

Lunch time was kale and brussels sprout salad with tomatoes, parmesan cheese and lemon vinaigrette. Half of an apple and half a cup of cottage cheese. My friend then share a slice of Papa Murphey’s New York style pizza with me. It was a pepperoni and sausage.

Got home and I am tired and chilled and still have to make lunches for tomorrow and dinner for tonight. So I just open yp a bottle of Angry Orcahrd Rose hard apple cider. Added a splash of Tito’s vodka to it. Yep, I did. I decided to cook up the bacon cheddear hamburger patties for dinner. Put hubby’s of a couple of slices of bread. Figured my carbs were liquid so I didn’t really need any more of them. I finihed of the rest of the kale and brussels sprout salad with the same type of dressing. (I always have to use spell check for the word vinaigrette) Meanwhile I decide to shred up the rotisserie chicken I got from the store and proceeded to eat basically ALL the skin off of it. OH BOY!! What the what?!?!?

To finish off the night I had what I hope to be the last of the Halloween candy. It was the dark chocolate (good for you, right?) Kit Kat snack size bar.

I am however finishing up on 175 ounces of water now and I did do Yoga abs this morning so my whole day was not too bad.

What is one of your weird food addictions?

How did you do today?

Friend Time!!!

Friend time is my favorite! If it wasn’t for my friend Adam today I probably would have never gotten dressed today. Try story. I had grand intentions. Workouts and filming a new video for my YouTube page and fitness group. Some food prep. My usual Sunday things. Then I slept in for the Fall Back an Hour day. Still not used to the changing of time. I was spoiled by living in AZ. Anyway I was going to be a bum all day and sit in my jammies and just Netflix and chill out. At least I got an hour walk in around the park.

So this is how my poor, poor eating habits went this day:

Breakfast was three cups of coffee with creamer. Five yes FIVE waffles. Two of them I put some home-made raspberry jam on them. Then I cooked two eggs over easy and had two more waffles. Then when I finished cooking them started putting them away I noshed on another one!! Had a glass of grapefruit juice to wash it all down with.

Lunch wasn’t really lunch. I knew I was meeting Adam at 3 and wanted to leave early to get coffees for us and try to find the park road we always meet up on. I haven’t been on a walk with Adam for a few years and I wasn’t certain how to get there from my new place. Anyway, I had the rest of the humus and as many pita crackers as it took to eat it all. Got dressed and headed to Starbucks. I ordered the new Toasted White Chocolate Mocha. It was good, had a toasted marshmallow taste to it.

Headed up to the park and walked for about an hour or so. Most of the fall leaves had fallen which was too bad for Adam. He loves to take photos.

Came home and changed back into my jammies. Opened up a Rose Hard Cider and heated up the oven for our stuffed salmon. Don’t get too excited I bought it from the meat deli. It is salmon stuffed with crab. Made red potatoes for the hubby and I had kale salad with parmesan cheese and lemon vinaigrette. Had another hard cider and then one of the Halloween bite size dark chocolate Kit Kat bars that I had hidden in the fridge.

So much for dinner and done! I know it will be better tomorrow. Work brings a bit more structure so it will provide more structure for my food too.

Water wasn’t that great either. I had about 140 ounces today. Well below my average.

Tomorrow is another day.

How did you do?