I wrote it down…..I promise!!

I am a huge advocate of water but also I am becoming a huge advocate for writing it down. I carry this large notebook with me to work and back writing down every thing I eat and drink. It is part of the process of becoming the healthiest version of me. Tracking is a big factor in that. It is about learning what is working for me and what is not working for me. I can look back on my journal and know what I ate and if it made an impact on me.

Anyway I left my notebook at work tonight! I will do my best to reconstruct from memory how my food day played out.

Breakfast (this is easy enough) coffee with almond milk creamer. I don’t know why but I always feel like I am supposed to capitalize almond, weird. I had three cups this morning at home. Then my super foods shake was vanilla today with blueberries and spinach. Yeah I have spinach for my shakes again!

Get to work and have two more cups of coffee with the same creamer in it. I am hungry so I get a granola bar from the vending machine. It is one of those almond sweet and crunchy bars. I am sure they are not that good for you but very simple and satisfying.

Lunch was a spicy tuna roll (large, like two servings) with wasabi and ginger and a little soy sauce. I had a salad with poppyseed dressing too.

Dinner….well I get home tired and annoyed by external factors so I open an Angry Orchard and cook the turkey taco meat up. I make three crunchy tacos with lettuce and cheese. I have another hard cider and TWO more tacos!! Wow! I am such a sucker for tacos!! Hubby informs me he bought cookies so I help myself to two double stuff golden Oreo’s.

I have had 135 ounces of water today. No workout Taco Tuesday came a day late but it was good!!

How did you do?

another day done…

Woke up today. Sometimes I feel like that is half the battle. The other half is minding my emotions when I don’t feel well or am tired. Seriously, it is hard to keep my mouth shut and my emotions from telling me to eat. Today was one of those days. I didn’t keep my emotions under control when things went wrong. I am tired from not feeling well and that didn’t help either. There is no food in the house and my plan was to go after work. That didn’t happen either. Too tired, too emotional, too many excuses.

I called my hubby told him I was leaving work and I was too tired to go to the store. He said come on home. I did. I ordered Chinese takeout. I am now over full and slightly embarrassed to tell you what I ate this time. Yet here I am confessing to you once again.

Breakfast: coffee with almond milk creamer (shoot I don’t have any for tomorrow) three cups. Cafe Latte super foods shake with almond butter and blueberries.

Went to work and had another cup of coffee with creamer. Then I ran up to the coffee shop and got a 16 ounce dirty Chai latte.

For lunch I had a cabbage/romaine salad with bacon bits and a maple bacon vinaigrette. Half of an apple. A serving of raw almonds.

Now dinner is a much different story: Chinese take out that involves seven fried cheese wontons dipped in sweet and sour sauce. Two spring rolls dipped in sweet and sour sauce. Broccoli, it came in the orange chicken container. Orange chicken, a few pieces of plain fried chicken that I, yep you guessed it, dipped in sweet and sour sauce. One fortune cookie that said ‘luck is coming my way’. Wish it said health and sleep were coming my way.

No workout today. Although I did shower so that is one step better than the weekend.

Water was okay. 150 ounces.

How did you do today?

Free bacon and Free coffee in the same day!….

It is Wednesday and I am here to confess my food journal to you. My back was still hurting when I woke up this morning from my yoga injury this morning. It is actually better now. I went ahead and did a yoga workout this morning hoping it would work out whatever it worked in yesterday. As the day progressed it really did start feeling better. When I started my workout this morning every time I went into downward dog I could feel my back starting to spasm. Bleh.

Anyway this is how my day played out:

Breakfast: two cups of coffee with that amazing Maple flavored Almond Milk creamer. Did you know that my spell check does not like the word creamer?  Made my  super-foods shake. Today was cafe latte with spinach, dark cherries and turmeric.

Wanted to get to work earlier so I left earlier. Leaving earlier means I get to go to the coffee stand for a latte. Stopped and got a 16 ounce Maple Spice latte. AND it was FREE today!! Cool.

I am at work trying to work through my emotions and stresses from the day before keeping my head down and catching up on what I left behind from yesterday. Next thing I know my co-worker Mike taps me on the shoulder and says ‘on my desk’ I walk over  and there it is; perfectly crisp lovely bacon on his desk. AND IT WAS ALL MINE!!!Five perfect pieces of bacon. FREE bacon and FREE coffee in the SAME DAY!! Oh what a wonderful world I exist in!

As the day progressed I did need to have another cup of coffee with half and half. Yes, I said need.

Lunch time rolls around and I have my cabbage, broccoli salad with the greek vinaigrette, green olives and shredded chicken. Dang it I still can’t spell vinaigarette! Tomorrow will be the last day of that salad. The bag is empty. I will buy it again though, I really like it! Anyway I was still hungry so I ate all my snacks too. That was a piece of string cheese, cucumbers and pita crackers.

Then I was cold so I made a cup of decaf coffee with more half and half

Came home from work ON TIME (holler) it was a 7:30AM to 5:45PM day. That makes me happy..ish…

I poured out a glass of grapefruit juice (throat is scratchy) added Tito’s vodka to it, you know to kill the germs. #justify Then I made the hubby dinner which was prosciutto stuffed ravioli with pesto sauce. Caught myself eating them out of the pan. A total of sixteen out of the pan to be exact. Asked my hubby to rub my head, neck and shoulders for a bit. Everything is starting to knot up again. Talked myself into having another Angry Orchard Easy Apple.

Now I am calling it a night.

165 ounces of water (after I drink this cup sitting next to me) and the yoga workout this morning. Outside fo the carbs for dinner I am pretty darn happy with myself..I mean come on, free bacon and coffee today!

How did you do?

Hurt myself during yoga…..

I think I am the only person I know who has injured themselves during a yoga practice. Once I fell out of a pose and injured my shoulder. Another time I fell out of a pose and injured my hip so bad I couldn’t teach Zumba for a month. Today I think I must have done one of the poses incorrectly and now pulled something in my lower back. It keeps locking up in a painful way..bleh.

Any way this is how my food played out.

Breakfast was coffee with almond milk creamer, two cups. Cafe Latte super foods shake with dark cherries and spinach.

Went to work and brewed a cup of coffee with half and half. Then I needed something stronger so I went to the vending machine and got a bottled Starbucks Mocha frap. I was feeling cold so I brewed a cup of decaf with more half and half.

Lunchtime I had shredded chicken with a Greek vinaigrette and cabbage, broccoli salad with green olives. Half of an apple, pita crackers and humus. It was all very good!

Had an incredibly stupid stress fun day at work. Guess I should call it a day at grade school instead! I don’t understand when it happened but at some point people stopped understanding how to listen and follow directions OR when they are “grown ups” but are acting like they are thirteen and have no common sense of what a work environment should be. Okay I will stop… I was just giving you a back story to explain my dinner.

My dinner was two Angry Orcahrd Easy apples and 3 mini bell peppers.

Yep. That is my “fitness coach” nutrition at it’s best.

I am proud to say that I did at least accomplish “dinner and done”

150 ounces of water today and Yoga practice that tweeked my back.

How did you do?

And basically all the chicken skin….

Happy November, Happy Monday, Happy day to me!

Yes that is a picture of  a baking sheet that has some stuck on chicken bits to it. Yes, I am a horrible cook and worse yet a horrible cleaner upper! The true grit of this picture though is the last little bits of chicken skin that I left behind. Gasp! How did I leave them behind? They were stuck, that is how.

I have a history with fried chicken skin. We go way back. Back to the days when I was working in retail pharmacy as a technician. Osco Drug. Do they still have Osco’s? I am not sure. They are very regional and out where I live now it is not an Osco region. Not a CVS region either, but that is a whole other blog topic.

Anyhoo, once upon a time the company bought KFC for the staff. My friend Bea was at lunch before me. She peeled all the skin off of her chicken to make it ‘healthier’. When she was done she left all the skins on her plate and placed her plate at the top of the trash heap. Well, and this is a TRUE story my friends, I LOVE chicken skin especially when it is deep-fried by the Colonel himself. So I walked over to her plate that I personally saw her discard and proceeded to eat all the skins! YES I DID!! Oh boy, and I wonder why I struggled so much with my weight back in AZ. I struggle now but I am much more aware of what I am doing that makes me struggle so much. (thanks to tracking) What does this have to do with my food tracking for today? Let me break it down for you:

Breakfast was two cups of coffee with Maple flavored almond milk creamer. My super foods shake (vanilla today with mango and spinach)

Get to work and make another cup of coffee with half and half. End up having two cups.

Lunch time was kale and brussels sprout salad with tomatoes, parmesan cheese and lemon vinaigrette. Half of an apple and half a cup of cottage cheese. My friend then share a slice of Papa Murphey’s New York style pizza with me. It was a pepperoni and sausage.

Got home and I am tired and chilled and still have to make lunches for tomorrow and dinner for tonight. So I just open yp a bottle of Angry Orcahrd Rose hard apple cider. Added a splash of Tito’s vodka to it. Yep, I did. I decided to cook up the bacon cheddear hamburger patties for dinner. Put hubby’s of a couple of slices of bread. Figured my carbs were liquid so I didn’t really need any more of them. I finihed of the rest of the kale and brussels sprout salad with the same type of dressing. (I always have to use spell check for the word vinaigrette) Meanwhile I decide to shred up the rotisserie chicken I got from the store and proceeded to eat basically ALL the skin off of it. OH BOY!! What the what?!?!?

To finish off the night I had what I hope to be the last of the Halloween candy. It was the dark chocolate (good for you, right?) Kit Kat snack size bar.

I am however finishing up on 175 ounces of water now and I did do Yoga abs this morning so my whole day was not too bad.

What is one of your weird food addictions?

How did you do today?

Friend Time!!!

Friend time is my favorite! If it wasn’t for my friend Adam today I probably would have never gotten dressed today. Try story. I had grand intentions. Workouts and filming a new video for my YouTube page and fitness group. Some food prep. My usual Sunday things. Then I slept in for the Fall Back an Hour day. Still not used to the changing of time. I was spoiled by living in AZ. Anyway I was going to be a bum all day and sit in my jammies and just Netflix and chill out. At least I got an hour walk in around the park.

So this is how my poor, poor eating habits went this day:

Breakfast was three cups of coffee with creamer. Five yes FIVE waffles. Two of them I put some home-made raspberry jam on them. Then I cooked two eggs over easy and had two more waffles. Then when I finished cooking them started putting them away I noshed on another one!! Had a glass of grapefruit juice to wash it all down with.

Lunch wasn’t really lunch. I knew I was meeting Adam at 3 and wanted to leave early to get coffees for us and try to find the park road we always meet up on. I haven’t been on a walk with Adam for a few years and I wasn’t certain how to get there from my new place. Anyway, I had the rest of the humus and as many pita crackers as it took to eat it all. Got dressed and headed to Starbucks. I ordered the new Toasted White Chocolate Mocha. It was good, had a toasted marshmallow taste to it.

Headed up to the park and walked for about an hour or so. Most of the fall leaves had fallen which was too bad for Adam. He loves to take photos.

Came home and changed back into my jammies. Opened up a Rose Hard Cider and heated up the oven for our stuffed salmon. Don’t get too excited I bought it from the meat deli. It is salmon stuffed with crab. Made red potatoes for the hubby and I had kale salad with parmesan cheese and lemon vinaigrette. Had another hard cider and then one of the Halloween bite size dark chocolate Kit Kat bars that I had hidden in the fridge.

So much for dinner and done! I know it will be better tomorrow. Work brings a bit more structure so it will provide more structure for my food too.

Water wasn’t that great either. I had about 140 ounces today. Well below my average.

Tomorrow is another day.

How did you do?

Wednesday woes……

I don’t know why I wrote woes on here. It really isn’t a tale of woe. It is just a tale of what I ate today..ha ha

As always I started my day with coffee and creamer. Then made an espresso with almond milk and creamer mixed. My shake today was chocolate with dark cherries and spinach. Tasty!

Got to work and brewed a cup of coffee with some coconut milk creamer. Ended up having two of those. Then my coworker gave a Halloween cupcake. Red velvet with cream cheese frosting, my favorite! That of course made me want another cup of coffee. So I did  a cup of half caf. and 1/2 and 1/2.

Lunch was the Fontera taco bowl pictured above. Yesterday when I was heading home I texted the hubby to see if he needed anything. He has had a sore throat and not feeling well. He said ‘gelato’. So off to the store I go, tired and hungry. A very bad combination to go to the store on. I get there and start thinking ‘hey it is Taco Tuesday I should buy some of that pre-seasoned turkey meat for tacos tonight’. They were out. So I started looking for something else taco-ish to eat or make quickly. No luck. As I was heading to the frozen food section I decided that I needed some creamer (I didn’t) Then I saw that the taco bowls were ‘on sale’ I use that term loosely. I love the salsa and even the premixed sauces so I thought how bad could it be? Answer is, pretty bad. Definitely doesn’t look like the picture on the box. Kind of bland. Glad I had my roasted broccoli to add to it. That made it better.

Snack today was one hard boiled egg, two sticks of celery and four mini bell peppers.

Started my dinner with dessert. Came home and dug into the trick or treat candy bowl. Had two sour twirler sticks. Then helped myself to a bottle of Angry Orchard Knotted Pear while cooking dinner. I had spaghetti squash with homemade sauce and an Italian sausage. Turned out pretty good. So that tracks as two servings of veggies and a protein!! Yay me!

Water was good today. 170 ounces. I did not workout and that makes me sad. I will tomorrow. I don’t want to lose that habit.

Have you tried the Fontera Taco Bowls?

How did you do?

Shield yourself from everyone else’s agenda…

That was from my personal development today. Shield yourself from everyone else’s agenda. Meaning make sure to take care of you and not react to others or what might happen during the day. Be prepared to deal with them all with grace and peace…..ha!

That is NOT what happened to me today. I had an accusatory email followed by a doubtful email that makes me take every thing very personal. I become very protective of my team, Bleh.  SO how do I cope? I eat. I eat it all and then some. …. here is how that played out today:

Breakfast: coffee with almond milk and a splash of sf vanilla syrup. Espresso with creamer and almond milk. Vegan caffe latte super foods shake with blueberries and spinach.

Got to work and stopped by for a Red Velvet hot 16 ounce latte. Regular boring Keurig coffee with 1/2 and 1/2.

Lunch: A slice of pizza and salad (pictured above) with balsamic dressing. A bag of salsa flavored Sun Chips and a Snickers bar. #doublebleh

Snack: six mini bell peppers

Dinner: #herecomesallthebleh Ritz Pita chips 34 of them the rest of the salmon dip. Half of the pita chips went into the microwave to have cheese melted upon them. Cracked open a bottle of Angry Orchard Knotty Pear.

See I started off with good intentions to shield myself… then I let my emotions and circumstances dictate how I respond. That is not a shield. It is a coping mechanism. #quadruplebleh

Water was good. 185 ounces and Yoga Flow this morning. SO there is that.

How did you do?

Productive day today…

I feel like I had a productive day today. I did not work out and didn’t get any studying done for my certification but it was productive none the less. I did meal prep today.

Today I finally made the apple banana muffins for my hubby’s lunch. They are made with almond flour so very low carb and it counts as a serving of fruit and he doesn’t even know! Okay well he will now. (: I also made raspberry jam (no sugar) it is more like a runny jam but I am excited to try it. I made homemade almond milk. I am going to share the super simple recipe tomorrow on my Fitness page so stay tuned. Roasted zucchini, broccoli and a spaghetti squash. Made homemade healthy spaghetti sauce too.  I like days that I feel like I got something healthy for me done. I had good intentions to film some videos for my Cancercize page but I didn’t. Instead I took a nap and watched a movie with my hubby. All wonderful Sunday things.

Water was good today: 150 ounces total. Here is how the food for the day played out:

Breakfast was my vegan chocolate superfoods shake with spinach and blueberries. Two coffee’s with creamer and one espresso with a combination of creamer and half and half.

Lunch was more of the awesome cajun smoked salmon dip with generic Ritz crackers. Had twelve of them. Then I had steak stir fry with carrots, bell pepper, broccoli and carrots all in a teriyaki sauce.  Had half of an apple left over from the muffins.

Had to taste one of the apple banana muffins to make sure I didn’t accidentally poison the hubby.

Dinner tonight was PIZZA!! Yeah after all that food prep I was too tired to actually cook!! So I ordered pizza and salad. Had my usual, sausage and black olive and a garden salad with balsamic dressing.

Outside of no workout and not getting all my things done of my TO DO list I feel pretty darn good about myself and rested.

Oh!! And I plugged in my weight into my tracker app and I am officially 12.8 pounds lighter! I have been using my tracker since Sept 2017 and I am down. I know twelve pounds may not seem like much to you in a years time but to me it feels like one hundred pounds!! It was the boot of confidence I needed to press on and fight the good fight.

How did you do?

Woke up and stayed……

Woke up and stayed in bed an extra hour! Why? Why do I do this to myself. Is it because I left things undone the night before and now I am behind? This is a cycle I need to break!!! This is NOT GOOD Renee!!!

Okay enough of my pity party. I am re-reading the 5 Second Rule by Mel Robbins and trying to get the system down. I count down to myself like the book suggests then I roll over and hit snooze, or reset my alarm. Yes, I am back to putting my phone by my bed…..sheesh. #cycle #dumb #moveon

Here is my food confession for the day:

Coffee with almond milk. Coffee with Italian Sweet Creamer. Vegan chocolate shake with 1/2 banana and 1 cup of spinach.

Red Velvet Latte 16 oz.

At this point I had developed a headache. Partly because I was disappointed in myself. Depression and tiredness also affected my headache.

Lunch was 1 Italian sausage link with 1 cup marinara sauce and one steamed bell pepper. 1/2 and apple for my carb.

Dinner was delivery pizza and salad. Headache still persisted and I had a coaching call at 6PM, barely made it home in time. So i had green salad with some tomatoes, onions, cucumbers and black olives and two slices of sausage and olive pizza (by the way two slices is equal to half of the personal size pizza) It was very good.

I did great on water today. 190 ounces. I am fully intending on going upstairs right after this to do some evening yoga. I am still tired and depressed and have a headache. I am unprepared for leading the meetings tomorrow and that is making me tired and stressed….see vicious cycle. I choose, CHOOSE to be better than this!!

how did you do?